Blood Moon

Training and Bonding

Bella's POV

It's weird not needing to sleep. After everyone went their different directions last night, Edward and I crawled into bed like we used to do when I was human. We would talk and occasionally sit in silence and cuddled. And of course there were some hardcore make-out sessions. I was less breakable now, so Edward didn't have to hold back as much, but we still didn't make it past 1st base. Now I didn't have to just deal with my raging teenage hormones, but the vampires instincts as well, and the last time he pulled back I growled at him. He just thought it was cute and funny which made me want to growl again.

As the sun was coming up, starting my second day as a vampire, my thoughts turned to Jasper. I knew he must have been beating himself up over what happened. I never really got to know Jasper before because Edward warned him to keep a distance, but I knew he had a harder start to his vampire life then the rest of the Cullen's did.

I didn't want him feeling guilty about biting me but I would have to wait for him to come to me before I could reassure him that I don't hold it against him. And I wanted to ask him about my theory about his feeling the thirst of every vampire around him. I just hope he won't stay away too long. I'm looking forward to the chance to get to know him since he will no longer have to keep his distance.

I suddenly flashed back to what it felt like to be in his arms when he caught me before I could face plant the night of my birthday. I never got a chance to reflect on how he made me feel because so much has happened since then. But it felt so right to be there. His arms were so strong and I felt safe and secure there. When I looked into his honey eyes, I felt such a strong pull towards him. Stronger than when Edward would dazzle me. What could that mean? Whatever it was, I can't let my body betray me like that again. Whatever this pull is, I have to bury it deep down inside because I can't do that to Alice or Edward.

Alice is my best friend and now my sister. I can't go around lusting after her husband. Oh God! Jasper will be able to feel my lust for him if I don't get it under control. Why can't I be shielded from his power too?

I look up to see Edward staring at me with that curious look in his eye. I know he wants to ask me what I'm thinking about so I distract him by asking him "So when will the rest of the Cullen's join us here?"

"I'm not sure" he said, "But I have to go back down to Forks in a day or two. I have a few things to take care of plus I should move out of town with the rest of the family. Alice has said that there will be no suspicion but we still need to be careful."

"I hate that I'm causing you guys to move from your home." I say looking away and burying my face in Edward's chest. "Rosalie must really hate me now. Everything ended the way she predicted. Me bitten and you guys having to move."

Edward puts his finger under my chin and lifts my face so I'm looking into his eyes, "You don't need to feel guilty about us having to move. We would have had to move soon regardless. Carlisle barely passes for thirty and he was claiming thirty-three. And Rosalie, doesn't need an excuse to be mad, she is perpetually angry anyway." he finishes with his crooked smile that would have made my heart skip a beat if I was still human.

This led to another round of 1st base make-out session which left me more frustrated and anxious to start training with Kate and Eleazar.

When Tanya and Kate returned from hunting I began my training with Eleazar and Kate. We are outside in front of the house and Kate is trying to get me to project my shield over Edward while she zaps him with her power. So far I'm not doing very well.

"Do you enjoy seeing Edward in pain?" Kate taunts me.

I growl at her and try again as I see her advancing on him again. Something snapped inside of me. Literally. I felt a snap in my brain and then I felt and saw what I assumed was my shield. I tried pushing it out from myself but it was very resistant. It didn't want to leave me.