Blood Moon

Advice and Plans

Jasper's POV

What is this attraction I'm feeling for Bella? I barely paid any attention to the girl since she stumbled into our lives earlier this year and then suddenly she's all I can think about. It started at her birthday party when I caught her as she stumbled down the stairs. And its continued since I've been here in Alaska. I nearly kissed her after our hunt for Christ sakes. I mean she is beautiful, but I have met many beautiful vampires. The Denali Sisters, for example, are very beautiful and excel at seduction, yet I have never been tempted by them; no matter how hard they've flirted in the past.

My plan was to go back to avoiding any direct contact with Bella. At least until I can successfully push back these feelings I am starting to have for her. I need to make this right. I have Alice, and Bella is meant for my brother; My brother who has been alone for his entire vampire existence.

I called Alice once Bella and I got back and went our own separate ways, but it went straight to voice mail. I hope she really was busy with all the loose ends they have to tie up down in Fork's but I really do fear that she has had some kind of vision regarding my inappropriate behavior. Well hopefully she has seen my decision to keep my distance and will forgive me.

I showered and was walking around to reacquaint myself with the Denali house. I stumbled across Bella in the family room and felt her curiosity. I instantly forgot about my plan to keep my distance when I realized that it is my fault that she is stuck in a strange house with strange people she had never met before. So I started explaining about Sasha and then showed Bella what I knew would become her favorite room in this house, the library, since she is a fellow bibliophile.

Bella jumped straight up to the third floor, to the literature section and immediately started to browse. I was curious what books appealed to her so I quietly followed her. I was surprised to see she was a fan of the classics. Most girls in her generation rarely read, but the ones that did were interested in supernatural romance books like The Vampire Diaries and The Mortal Instruments. But then again she is surrounded by the supernatural so she doesn't have to read about it. When she grabbed Gone With the Wind a part of me hoped that she was thinking of me by choosing something set during the Civil War.

To distract myself from that line of thinking I said, "Interesting choice."

I felt her shock before she said "I was really hoping that when I became a vampire, that no one would be able to sneak up on me and you've managed to do it twice in under an hour."

"Sorry! I didn't mean to scare you." I said trying to sound contrite and attempting not to smile.

"So what do you have against Gone With the Wind?"

"Nothing, really, I just thought you would pick something with a happy ending. Plus I wouldn't exactly put it on the same scale as Pride and Prejudice, Great Expectaions, and Beauty and the Beast."

"Beauty and the Beast?" She said and I could feel her humor. "I never would have guessed that to be a favorite of yours."

"I kind of relate to it. Alice is beauty and I'm the beast," I whispered looking down not wanting to see disgust, or even worse, pity in her eyes.

"But your hott!" She said causing me to look up in shock.

"You think I'm hott?" I asked in disbelief. I can't believe that anyone would find my disfigured body 'hott'.

"Oh come one, you can't be ignorant of the fact that you are drop dead sexy especially when you let your accent come through." she said and I could feel that she truly believed that.

"With all these scars, I would definitely say I'm more beast," remembering all the times I felt fear coming from anyone who had seen my scars, even Alice. It took her eons to be okay with me removing my shirt even when we made love.