my moms phone rang, i could hear it from upstairs and i waited to hear the conversation. soon enough my mom was yelling throughout the whole house that we need to go to the hospital because troye is awake.
he's awake
we all run to the car, i, the first one in. my leg bouncing up in down in the car as i anxiously looked out the window, wanting to get there now. all in all, i was anxious, excited, and nervous.
all i wanted was to squeeze him into a hug I'm just happy he's alive.
when we got to the hospital, we signed in and my parents filled out some paper work... but me, i couldnt wait to fill out paper work so i went in the room without them.
after asking someone what room he was in, a nurse named nurse tia showed me his door.
i was so frickin happy to see him i missed him so much. i took a composed breath before i opened the door slowly to see troye laying down in a hospital bed, asleep. my heart fell for him with a giant bruise on his head and his skinny shoulder.
i wanted to kiss the pain away and i wanted to jump on him and attack him with hugs and kisses. something i didnt notice before while in the ambulance were the dark hickies on his neck and collarbone.
i didnt expect it, but i started to cry. i moved to the side of his bed and couldnt control my tears that fell from my face.
"just be careful with him since he is in critical care and he's very fragile from surgery" nurse tia said before exiting the room.
i watched his beautiful face, he looked like an angel. his eye lids started to flutter open,
"jake" he smiled. his voice sounded a bit raspy but he was still beautiful. he looked droopy.
i caressed his cheek and he leaned into it and i wiped my tears with my other hand.
"are you crying?" he asked tiredly. i turned my head away so he wouldnt see me "no,no, just missed you"
"i missed you too i got so scared i dont know what happened"
i had a very strong urge to hug him, and squeeze him tight but i had to resist in order to not hurt him.
i kneeled next to him, "tro can you move?"
"not yet.... my ribs really hurt.... my whole body really hurts" he said sadly "i really wanna hug you"
"me too" i smiled
"tro... your not pearlized...are you?"
"no jake" he said with a little laugh, "where's everyone else?"
"filling out paperwork"
"i wanna try and sit up-"
"tro i dont think that's a good idea you could hurt yourself" i said, but he didnt listen. his frail arms bent and trying to lift himself up in a sitting position. "ahh" he yelped while clutching his ribs.
god, i wanted to kiss him so bad
"i really wanna hugggg" he whined with a pout
"here wait, let's figure this out" i started leaning different ways, trying to find a way to hug him. eventually i got up on the bed, and he moved over, despite the many medical wires. i ended up laying next to him.
"i couldnt sleep at all last night" i told him
"apparently i slept for two whole days straight" he said
there was an awkward silence for a minute as i tried to construct my words.
"i'm sorry that i was late seeing your texts" i said
"it's okay, jake, it's not your fault-"
"but i knew this would happen! i knew he would do something bad, i felt it, and i didnt do anything to stop it... i shouldnt have let you go" i said cutting him off.
"it's okay, you're not the one to blame anyways... i shouldnt have gone... i kinda had a bad feeling as soon as he said we are going back to his house"
"okay but you're defiantly not to blame"
i was still mad at myself
