Barely legal (Student/Teacher Relationship)

Chapter Twenty-two

Hello all, hope you enjoy the newest chapter. I want to apologize for the longest wait ever but bear with me I WILL finish this book. Also I just wanted to add this, IM BACK BITCHES.

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"Shit" I curse at the wind while still standing shocked on the balcony.

"Who was that?" Kyle says stepping outside quietly.

"No one" I lie instinctively. As much as I preach about how much I hate liars, I lie all of the time.

Except this time he knows i'm lying, "Was it Ivory? Everything will be okay Rilan I promise." He comes up behind me and wraps his arms around my stomach. I don't know how I can do this, just stay here on this balcony knowing that in a matter of hours Kyle and Ryan both would be in the same room looking to me for answers.

"Hey, could you get us reservations for somewhere nice tonight?" I question avoiding his eyes at all costs. I can't let him catch me in this game, it won't end well for any of us.

"Sure, i'll do it now before the gym." As he walks back into the room I cant help but feel sadness wash over me. I do love Kyle but I've never felt the way I do about Ryan. Maybe I should just run away, from the both of them.

My heart couldn't handle losing them both, it would tear me apart at the seams. As much as I hated to admit it, I need my best friend. I need her to comfort me and tell me that hey it's okay to be stuck in the most fucked up love triangle in the world, or to tell me I've made the best decision when I finally have to make one.

As soon as I hear the door close I climb back into the room and plop down on the queen sized bed.

"What would Ivory do?" I say out loud channeling my best friends spirit even though the thought of her and her situation makes my stomach churn.

"A pros and cons list." I answer myself smiling. Does talking to myself make me crazy or am I crazy either way? I pull out a piece of paper and begin to scribble down my list.

Pros for being with Ryan; he's intelligent, respectful, fucking gorgeous, genuine, caring, and I love him.

Cons for being with Ryan; he's my teacher.

Before I had time to rack my brain to come up with more cons the knocking on the door makes me jump.

"Hello?" His velvet voice says from behind the heavy door.

"Ryan? How are you already here? You said later?" I was already out of breath before I could open the door, but when I saw him the wind was completely knocked out of me and my lungs felt like they could never recover.

"When I called I was already waiting outside, don't think I'm a stalker please I just needed you to get rid of that kid." He says moving in and closing the door behind him.

"Wait what? He's going to come back Ryan." I say slowly scooting away from him so that distance was between us.

"I don't care, I'm not leaving here without you. I know you want to be with me just as much as I want to be with you, and I'm not about to give up on this. Ive never felt this way about anyone Rilan, and I can't lose you over some jock." He says closing the distance I worked so hard to create.

"Kyle is more than a jock-" I start but before I can finish he moves in wrapping his hand around my waist and kisses me softy. We stay like that for what seems like an eternity until he pulls away. I stagger back and sit on the bed staring at the floor. He was right when he said I wanted to be with him, which made me feel worse than ever.

"You didn't want me." I stutter examining the swirls in the carpet.

"Rilan that is not the case and you know it. I was trying not to take advantage of you! Do you know how hard it was for me not to give in? Not to just have you then and there? It was the hardest thing i've ever done." He lifts my chin up with his finger and stares into my eyes. I can feel myself growing weak, everything about him is enticing and makes my heart ache with need.

"Come back with me. Come home, as soon as you graduate we will come out as a couple, I will show you the man I can be for you. Just please give me a chance Rilan." His voice sounds exactly how I feel, and his eyes begging me to believe him.

"Okay." I whisper watching his eyes light up. "But I can't just not tell Kyle, I have to be honest with him." My heart quickens as I say it. How do I possibly tell a guy that has brought me on this wonderful trip and loved me that I am leaving him for my teacher?

"Are you sure you want to do that?" I can tell from his voice he's worried, maybe because he thinks i'll change my mind or because he's worried for my safety I'm not entirely sure which one it is but the worry soon hits me too.

"Maybe you should just leave a note for him? Rather than doing this face to face?" He asks shrugging his shoulders. He knows as well as I do that this won't go over well. I mean Kyle is one of the most caring guys I know, but once you piss him off the gentleness tends to leave him.

"Thats not right Ryan, I owe him this." I shrug as I lay back on the bed. The room grew so silent I wasn't sure if he was still there until I felt him sit on the end of the bed.

"I want to be here." He adds after a long pause.

"That is a terrible idea, last time you two were together it ended in fight night and I never want to relive that." I say as my phone rings loudly beside me.

It was Ivory, I had almost forgotten about everything until I saw her name. I quickly pressed ignore and threw the phone back down with a grunt.

"Is there a reason you keep ignoring her?" Ryan smiles softly at me as I pull myself up to sit next to him.

"She's pregnant, and she screwed the worst guy in the school so I think thats a good enough reason." I snort watching his expression change.

"She's pregnant? Is she okay?" His tone was soft and caring as he wrapped one arm around my shoulder. A wave of guilt washed over me as I realize I haven't even bothered to ask if she is okay, or to ask how she's going to tell her mom, or to make sure she has a place to stay if her mom gets so angry she kicks her out.

As if he could read my mind he picks up my phone and places it in my hands, "Just text her and ask if she's okay. I know you're upset, but she's like your sister  Rilan and you can't just abandon that."

I smile at him as I text Ivory asking if she's okay. "You really are a decent guy aren't you?" I ask as move in and kiss him softly. It wasn't long before my soft kiss turned into a more passionate one and my hands were exploring under his shirt. He lays me back down and climbs on top of me and kisses up my neck sending chills down my spine. His kiss is so entrancing that through the excitement of his hands exploring every inch of my body, and the guilt building in my gut from not telling Kyle first I could feel myself falling deeper. That is until the sound of a key opening the door interrupted us.

"Shit, go! Get outside on the balcony!" I shove a shirtless Ryan outside while hurriedly finding his shirt and trying to steady myself.

Just as I close the balcony door a sweating Kyle enters the room. 

"What happened to your shirt?" He asks taking out his earphones. I hadn't even noticed that my outfit was completely messed up. I quickly tug everything back into place and try to hide the growing heat in my cheeks.

"How was the gym?" I say trying to remind myself that this is just Kyle, the loving friend I've had forever. It'll be okay I repeat over and over in my head until I accidentally say it out loud.

"What will be okay? Ivory?" He steps closer to me and pushes my hair back. It's amazing how even after working out he still looks unfazed, almost even better than before. Shit Rilan stop you love Ryan.

"I love Ryan." I blurt out before I can stop myself. As soon as I see his face morph I know I should've just left a note. He was no longer the caring guy from moments ago and was now replaced with a completely different person, an angry person I've never seen before. I didn't even feel it when he slapped me as hard as he could and I fell to the ground. I didn't feel fear when he kicked me again and again in the stomach. I didn't cry as I tasted the metallic blood in my mouth, I didn't even cringe when the venomous names poured out of his mouth. The only thing I felt was comfort when I see Ryan enter the room.