My Feelings Exist Too [Kyoya x Tamaki <3]

Chapter 1 - Lovesick

A/N- Hi! This will be my first time ever posting anything and I hope you like what I've wrote. There is not any smut yet but if you would like me to add some in the next chapter or the chapter after that just comment! Happy reading <3

Kyoya POV ~

Host club had just ended and I noticed Tamaki was acting weird. He didn't seem as ecstatic as usual and that's not like him at all. So naturally, I had to ask.

"Hey Tamaki, are you feeling alright? I noticed you seemed a little off today. Is everything okay?" I asked with my usual expressionless face that I work so hard to keep.

Tamaki had jumped and turned around to speak, pale as a ghost "Uh yeah, Kyoya, everything is just fine." When my sister lied her eyebrow twitched and with Tamaki his voice goes higher. That's what had just happened.

"Tamaki," I said sternly "are you lying to me?"

He sqeaked, ran toward, and hid behind his precious Haruhi. Occasionally peeking over her shoulder to see if I was looking. Which to my knowledge was every time he checked. I smirked at Tamaki's childish behaviors. Amusing.

~Magical Time Skip~

A few hours after school ended I decided maybe I should bother Tamaki some more and figure out what's actually going on with him.

I had my driver take me to Tamaki's house and I just walked in knowing everyone already knew me and didn't care whether I was there or not. No one gave me a second glance.

I walked upstairs to Tamaki's room with steamy chicken noodle soup in a little can in my hand. He loves my chicken soup and I love how he freaks out every time I give him gifts.

I opened his door, slowly peeking my head through; And tried not to "scare" him. Instead, I quietly asked "Tamaki...? You there?"

It wasn't even 7 PM and he was already peacefully sleeping in his bed, cuddling up to his brown bear that he cared so much for. He looks a lot cuter when he isn't having a fit all the time. I smiled enjoying this moment for a bit.

Quickly, I grabbed his shoulder and violently shook his body, "WAKE UP TAMAKI!"

He shoots up into a sitting position and makes a fake gun with his hands and points it at me. His eyes were barely open and his hair was sticking up all over his head. He looked like Sonic.

After a good and long 5 seconds he finally realizes he's not in danger. "Oh... Hi Kyoya," he was now completely awake and completely aware. "W-what are you doing here?" He looked down trying to hide his tinted pink cheeks but I already know they're there.

I put two fingers under his chin and lifted his head up so he could look into my eyes.

"You told me earlier that you weren't feeling well so I thought I'd come by to cheer you up." He looks at the can of soup and his amethyst eyes lit up with sparkles.

"IS THAT CHICKEN NOODLE SOUP? OH MY GOD KYOYA YOU ARE THE BEST! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOMMY!"

He jumped onto me giving me a great big bear hug before turning his attention to scarfing down that soup. I would never admit this to anyone but I blushed to his outburst of affection towards me. I hated myself for letting my emotions show on my face but with Tamaki, I put my guard down.

After Tamaki had finished his soup he made his way to the bathroom connected to his room, and started brushing his teeth.

"So... what was the real reason you were off today Tamaki? You've been sick at the host club before and it never stopped you then, so what happened?"

He turned off the water with his head still down over the sink and took his time answering. "I had a lot on my mind," he finally spoke.

"Tamaki, if this is about Haruhi you ca-"

"This isn't about Haruhi!" He yelled with his frustration obvious and very strong. I was in complete shock but didn't let it show of course. I watched as he made his way out of the bathroom.

Going back into the room I pushed Tamaki back into the wall with my hands on both sides of his head so he couldn't escape. I kept my head down because I knew for certain I would become an emotional mess, that I didn't want him to see.

"J-just tell me how I can h-help you. I don't like seeing you like this!" I could hear my voice cracking and my emotions were taking over. I hated it. He probably thinks I'm weak.

I looked up and into his dull purple eyes waiting for a response. Showing him that I needed a response.

Turning away a tear fell down his face "I can't..."

There was a few seconds of silence before I realized what was actually happening.

"Fine." Without another word I walked out before I could change my mind and I didn't look back. 

If this was about his parents or Haruhi, he would have told me. He has in the past so he would have now. It must be something I did.

What did I do for him to be so broken?

A/N - Next chapter will be out sometime this week I just need to be a little more motivated. It would help if I got comments and reads.