I lie awake, unable to rest. This constant over thinking is ruining me. Why is it that these stupid thoughts do not cease to run through my mind? At times these persistent intrusions haunt my mind, like something out of a nightmare. Picture it like that sadistic killer that just will not stop his pursuit to attain you. These thoughts ruin me; they ruin my sanity, my self-esteem, my trust. There are times where I want my mind to be like a blank canvas, empty. However, without them I wouldn't have this site, nor the sketchpads and pencils I own. This pestering monster within just will not let down. It claws the walls within my psyche, leaving its scribe there for me to ponder. It makes me doubt everyone I know. It makes me doubt the guy who gradually imprints himself in my mind with each beautiful word spoken to me.
