VENDETTA [LAMS]

Chapter 33 [Lams's New Collar]

Oh look some gud fluffy shit and NO ITS FLUFF GUYS.

Alex's POV

Day 4.

I slept with John last night. It's not what you're thinking, give him a break. He's been through tons of shit. His flight was two hours ago.

I didn't sleep. Why? Because I planned a lot of stuff in my head. Such as: surprising John when he comes home.

I'm all bi myself for now. Hercules slept with Lafayette. It's weird how me and Hercules usually ends up leaving our dorm or something as if it never existed. I'm here, taking care of Lams since I don't have any classes. The puppy is sleeping on my lap.

I study law right?

Fun fact: It's illegal to move when a puppy is sleeping on your lap. It's one pm now. Hmm, I didn't know what to do. Laf is out dating Herc. I'm alone.

I'm homo lone.

It's not technically a house but I'm doing this for the joke. I wonder how John is doing. I told him something though. He was almost crying his eyes out last night. It aches my heart to see him so damn sad. What did he do to deserve this?

To describe John, He is soft around the edges, silent like the calm before the storm; I can always take off those soft edges in my hands and see the beauty lying there like a flash of gold in mud. When he smiles, he shines, he laughs, he cries, he jokes, he spaces out and I notice. I always notice it.

In summary, he's the definition of home and my peace of mind. He always somehow silence the doubts, insecurities that are eating me alive like a quick sand swallowing me alive and then he comes and pull me up. If anything, and I say, anything. It'll be a boring world if he weren't here. If me and him aren't together, it's fine because knowing he exists in this world makes it all better. It's kinda cliché to say he's my world; It's more of: He makes my world better and makes life more exciting.

I should really write that down for him—

Wait.

I should write little notes for him when he comes back I'll give it to him. I mean, his mother is sick right? He'll be terrible once he goes home. I can't bear seeing him like that. I want to make him happy just like he makes me happy. I should be with him—

Forever.

Too soon? My heartbeated fast at that thought. Forever is a long time. Was I willing to risk anything for John? Was I willing to spend my whole life with him? Yes.

•••

That's why I bought a collar.

Kinky bastards! Not in that way. I bought a collar for Lams. A turquoise collar with different 3D shapes of geometrical figures. My favorite one is the cube one.

"Lams! I'm here!" I say as I opened the door in Laf and John's dorm. The puppy perked up and ran to me to greet me. I kneeled down, smiling as I put the collar on her. It fit perfectly. The puppy barked as I pat her head. I went inside and closed the door too. The puppy ran around. She's happy to see me. Imagine seeing John after two weeks.

I smiled at the thought of Lams jumping up and down to get John's attention to pick her up and play catch with her.

The door opened revealing Lafayette laughing and Hercules glaring at him.

"What happend to your date?" I asked as I put my new journal papers I bought earlier when I left to get the collar for Lams.

"You see, Lafayette is a dick." Hercules crosses his arms while Lafayette closed the door and plopping lazily on the couch.

"How so?"

"Me and mom amour were watching a movie called King Arthur's legend sword or something." Laf said, grinning.

Hercules added, "While watching the movie, Laf started making sword jokes and staff jokes and then I didn't get to understand the movie because he kept on making tentacle porn jokes when the sacrifice happend. Y'know the part where Arthur fights—"

"Best part I started jacking him off while watching—"

"Lafayette!" Hercules turned to me his face red as a tomato. I laughed and he said: "That never happend."

"Stop denying it Mon cher." Laf laughed.

"Laughfayette." I say.

"That's a terrible joke Alexander." Lafayette said.

Hercules shrugged, "So, what happend to John last night?"

I say, "His mom. Sick. Leukemia."

"Damn." Herc muttered.

"Is he okay?" Laf says.

I bit my lip, "I tried my best to cheer him up but I don't know it's not enough. I'm terrible at cheering up people and John started crying and I just hugged him and whispered empty promises."

"What empty promises?" Hercules asked leaning on the wall.

Lams started chewing on John's hoodie.

"Well, I told him it isn't his fault and he's blaming himself for all of this. I still feel like he's hiding something but he'll eventually open up right?" I say.

Lafayette nodded, "Mhm, John loves you Alex and he appreciates you."

"I guess so, but I'm planing something when he comes back from South Carolina and I need your help." I grinned.

The two shared a look, smiling as if they were talking with their eyes.

"Anything for my nutella homie, Johnny." Herc says.

"Nutella homie?" Laf asked, sitting down on the sofa while I sat next to him, but before that I put my eco bag on the table.

Me and Herc shrugged.

I explained, "I'm planing a small welcome back party. Schuyler sisters are included too. We'll drink our problems away."

"Ah." Hercules smirked.

I shook my head, "Just go with it. We could even binge watch Marvel movies or something."

"And then sex—" Laf was cutten off when Hercules piped up, "So you need help in drinks, food and also some visitors?"

"Which are?" I asked.

"Schuyler sisters, obviously."

Laf piped up, "Can Jefferson and Madison come?"

I thought about it, "Okay."

"Yes!" Lafayette smiled while we looked at him weirdly.

"I'll make some short letters, poems a notebook about him if that's okay." I say.

"That's a great gift." Herc says.

I smiled as we continued discussing about the welcome back party with them.

Aww Alex is so inlove as for John—rippero.