Pizza Boy (NARRY) -Fetus Writing- #Wattys2015

Chapter 4: You Are My Sunshine

Sitting next to Lux in her hospital bed, I want to cry. But I can't. My tears are all backed up from the news. Mum and Greg are still waiting for me to say my goodbye's, them already having their turn. I asked mum half an hour ago if she would go get my guitar for me. She gladly did so, and has just returned with it. She left, but not without a kiss on my head. I sit in the chair for a while, staring at her beautiful, lifeless body. I still can't believe she's just, gone. I was never really prepared for this, and now that its happened, I wish I had prepared more. At least I got to see her last facial expression before she passed, which is one of pure joy and happiness. She was making her own pizza, something she's never done before and I was the cause of that.

**I'm starting to cry already, jesus christ, take the wheel**

After checking my guitar in case it needed tuneing, I start strumming the strings to her favorite song that I would sing her to sleep with when she was a baby. Mum couldn't sing, and neither can Greg, so it was up to me to do something and this song was the Safe Haven to her dreams.

"The other night dear, when I lay sleeping. I dreamt I held you in my arms. But when I woke dear, I was mistaken. So I hung my head and I cried."

Here comes everyone's favorite part, and the part that causes my thick tears to start streaming down my cheeks.

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy, when skies are gray. You'll never know dear, how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away."

My voice cracks at "away" and I bow my head, trying not break down in the middle of the song.

"I'll always love you, and make you happy. And nothing else could come inbetween. But now you've left me, to love another. You have shined all of my dreams. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy, when skies are gray. You'll never know dear, how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away."

My voice cracks again at "please don't take my sunshine away", twice.

I continue to strum the song, trying to swallow down the big lump in my throat. One glance at Lux and I can't keep the wall up. I bow my head more and loosen my arms, covering my face with my left hand and I start balling my eyes out, a few weeps escaping my mouth. 

**I played the song again to be over whats happening, as if it were a movie, and the voices be in the background rather then the music**

Mum and Greg notice my break down and rush into the room, kneeling down to me and trying to comfort me but I won't have it. I just want them to go away and leave me alone, but they are determined to make me feel better even though they are just as sad.

"Go away!" I snap at them. They stop and fall silent, sharing a look before they just leave, shutting the door. I look down at the guitar, my fingers shaky and weak. But its like a new life goal that I finish the song, for Lux.

So, I force myself to keep up the rhythum of the song.

"You told me once, dear, you really loved me. And no one else could come between. But now you've left me, and love another. You have shattered, all of my dreams."

I have another mini break down but the pause only lsts a few second before I gather myself up again.

You are my sunshine. My only sunshine. You make me happy, when skies are gray.You'll never know dear, how much I love you. Please don't take my sunshine away. In all my dreams dear, you seem to leave me. When I awake my poor heart pains."

My voice is not steady as all as I force myself to finish the song, only a verse and a half left but with my ters making my vision blurry, my shaky body weak, and the sadness taking over me, its quite difficult.