i'm shaking my bones chattering like
cold,
grey,
teeth.
i am like a raging cyclone nearing the shores,
angry,
deadly,
misunderstood.
i am high on chemicals but i am not addicted,
blurry,
stinging,
pain.
my heartbeat and breathing are fast and i am still,
shaking but,
i am,
relaxed,
what i am feeling it is utterly fake,
temporary,
but for now,
it is okay.
you do not understand and it is frustrating,
please,
stop,
lying.
how would you feel if i did what you do to myself,
it,
fucking,
hurts.
i am sorry for caring so much but try to believe me,
i,
need,
you,
and just as much as you need me.
