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Its been 2 whole years and I still love him. When I think back to how it started I remember that night and how I felt. Jeremy is the love of my life.

Malik and I didn't talk at first but after a month or 2 we both got tired of the silent treatment. Everything was going great until about a year ago after Malik was hospitalized. When Malik first got sick they said he asked for me in the hospital. I stayed  with him and introduced him the Jeremy or reintroduced. This time it was more civil.

He wouldn't tell me what was wrong but he said he was fine and I believed him. When I couldn't come see him I would send Jeremy with food and other things to make Malik feel better. After a while they became friends. He even likes Jeremy now. I mean everyone likes Jeremy. The passed 2 years with him have been amazing I could have never picked a better person to spend them with.

Today is my 20th birthday and Mia and  Jeremy said they would take me out for dinner. Mia gets along with him pretty well. She doesn't really like anyone I date but she tolerates Jeremy, which is more then enough.

I sit on the stairs of me and Mia's apartment and take a nice long inhale of my cig. I told Jeremy I would quit before my 21st birthday. I don't see that happening anytime soon though.

The sun was beautiful today, i just wanted to soak all it in. I live with my best friend, I have the best boyfriend in the history if boyfriends, and the best part no more mom. Don't get me wrong I love her but living with her... YIKES.

"Hey chicken legs!" I snatch myself out of my day dream to identify the asshole that called me my horrible old nickname. With no surprise it was Malik. He pulled up to the curb and was waving at me through the passenger window. "You got time to hang out with a reject before your knight in shining armor comes?" I jumped up and stepped on my cigarette. " Let me see if I can work it into my very busy schedule" I smiled, grabbed my purse from the bottom step, and opened his car door. "Of course I do!"  I said placing a cig in the corner of Malik's mouth. "I always have time for you"

I noticed that he hadn't shaved this morning. He didn't really have a 5 o'clock shadow, more like just scruff around the rim of his mouth and upper lip. It made him look more serious, like something was on his mind. Malik was really good at not letting me read his face or mind.

"So..." He handed me my cigarette back. "Where to birthday princess?"

"I dunno, mmmmm maybe the bored walk?"

"Ah, nice the place where I crashed you and lover boy's first date" He took his eyes of the road for a moment to look at me. "Feeling sentimental?" He never really talks like this, was something wrong? Or maybe it was just my birthday. "Nah just remembering stuff"

"I know you're turning 20 but you don't need to get all mushy on me"

"Me! Never! I'm the same party girl you met that day at church"

"Meeting a party girl in church? That was new for me"

"SHUT UP ASS FACE. Can you blame a girl for wanting to keep memories"

"No, but we have a whole life time for that" He smiled at me taking his focus away from the road once more. "Yeah, i guess your right" His voice changed in way that I had never heard before.

He saw my face and almost on que turns the radio on. It was some guy that sounded like Justin Beiber. I tapped the outside of the door along with the melody of the song.