Danielle Pov.
"Wake up you'll be late for school Danielle" My mom whispers as I feel her hand lightly run my arm. I nod sadly sitting up. She pulls me into a comforting hug.
"M-mom... Does the school know?" I croak. I don't want them to know. Not about what I have. It scares me of what the kids my age and adults might think.
"Danielle... Only the office knows. Nobody else knows. Unless you tell them" My mom says pulling away. She places a light kiss on my forehead. I nod sniffing a bit. She walks away closing the door slowly.
I get up and change into a cut army green crop top with blue denim jeans and my black hightop converse.
I let my hair flow and only put on mascara and lip gloss. Nothing more. I grabbed my backpack and made my way downstairs.
"I love you mom. Love you dad" I say kissing them on the cheek each. I skipped on breakfast and made my way outside. I saw other kids walk too. Like always filling the sidewalks. I kept walking minding my own buisness scared of school.
I have cancer. How do I tell people that? Do I even tell them? I don't want to. I feel like if I tell people... People will look at me different. They might even call me a freak or not hang out with me.
What about Ethan... And Grayson. What would they think!? I made it inside of school not going to my locker. I just stand on my phone by my locker. Looking at the choices on my phone. I took a quick picture of the paper that shows my choices before we left.
"Hey dani!" I heard Ethan say as I looked up. I shifted uncomfortably and turned off my phone as Ethan gave me a look.
"You okay?" He says as he envelopes me in a hug. I nodded in his chest as we let go.
"How was Jersey?" I asked as they took a trip back to there hometown for the weekend. I see Ethan smile.
"It was awesome! I wish you could have came though" Ethan says as they invited me. I met their family before and they were perfectly fine with me going, but I had that doctors appointment.
"I'm sorry Eth" I say as he shrugs it off as we walk around campus.
"How was your weekend?" He asked. I take a large gulp making my eyes water. I shake my head.
"It was good. I just had a little fever" I say as Ethan nods. I feel terrible for lying. This wasn't harder than I thought.
"So you stood home?" He ask being the over protective person he is. If I'm sick he never let's me go out. He and Grayson go out for me. Even if the get stuck with fans taking pictures they make me stay home.
"Yes I stood home Ethan" I say smiling a bit. He nods smiling down at me. The bell rings signaling that first period is in 3 minutes.
"Lets go?" He ask as we walk through he help going to our first period.
-Lunch time-
I walked out of my class feeling light headed. I needed to take it easy, but being my stubborn self I didn't. Even my teacher told me privately to slow my pace. My teachers know about me. I found it white sad they know.
Me. A hopeless girl trying to live her life to the fullest and bam. She gets hit with cancer.
I made my way down the echoed halls to the tables where we eat lunch. I saw Ethan and I went over to sit beside him.
"Was just about to get lunch. Want to come?" Ethan asked as I nodded lightly. We got good and came back. I didn't feel hungry. I didn't want to eat.
I took a bite of my apple not wanting anything else. I felt sick. I pushed my tray away lightly as Grayson came over with his good and a few other people came and say beside us.
"Whats up with you today? You always eat your lunch" Ethan says finishing his apple. I shook my head smiling at him and Grayson.
"Just not that hungry today I guess" I give another slight smile. Ethans lips purse lightly and nods. Ethan and Grayson started to talk with the people around the table as I just starred at the table.
I hated my life at the moment. I had such a easy choice to choose. I just feel so scared. I'm dying. If I choose chemotherapy my hair would fall. I won't be at school so much. I'll end up looking pale. I never thought about this. How cancer patients are. It now breaks my heart deeply.
I feel my eyes water and I quickly wipe my eyes. Not now. I have to be strong. Just saying that makes me want to cry.
I feel a slight nudge on my shoulder as I look up to see Ethan.
"Sorry... What?" I say lightly. Grayson sighs.
"Your really worrying me Dani" Ethan says. I shake my head and give a small smile.
"I'm fine you guys" I say. Grayson smiles at me sweetly. The bell rings and I stand up. I walk to class feeling exhausted. I need to eat, but I just can't.
-After school-
"I need to go home. Bye Ethan. Bye Grayson" I say as Grayson gives me a hug. He doesn't let go until I do. Ethan pulls me to him holding me real tight.
"I hope your okay Danielle" Ethan whispers. I nod looking away. Not up at him. I walk off not saying a word. It hurts me that I'm lying. I just can't lie to them. Although I can't tell them.
I walked home and decided what I wanted.
Note- I'm gonna cry writing every chapter. See what I do to myself? I just like sad things. I always look sad too. That's what everyone says smh.
