Danielle pov.
I want to die.
As bad as that sounds, I am anyway. This disease is eating at my body and it won't stop till' it gets what it wants.
Death.
I'm at a store with Grayson as we look for wigs. I find it embarrassing I wanted to do this. Looking at wigs for a girl who's hair is falling out. It sucks.
"I don't think I want a wig right now. Maybe extensions" I explained to Grayson as we hurried inside the store. Feeling creeped out a bit. We went to the extensions part of the store and looked for my color.
"Oh look" Grayson grabbed a certain color with some weird name on it.
"Hm... It does look like my color.." I said impressed with Grayson. He smiled as we paid and made out way out.
"When all of it... Falls. I think I'm just gonna wear a beanie" I whisper as grayson gave me a smile nodding. His eyes back on the road ahead.
"I think you will still look beautiful"
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I went over to Grayson and Ethans house. Mostly for Ethan.
I needed to apologize. I can't reveal what I have... But I want to apologize.
I knocked hearing loud footsteps to the door as it swung open.
"Danielle..? You here for Grayson?" He muttered looking down at the floor. I shook my head. Knowing he couldn't really see it.
"I actually came to apologize... To you" I said as he let me in at the same time. We sat on the fluffy couch as he ran a hand through his hair.
"I'm sorry Ethan. I just... I just really like your brother" I said sadly. The thing is I don't want his brother. I want him. Not in a sexual way. In a sweet loving way. I want his arms wrapped around me and his lips to kiss mine.
But I can't do that. Not to Ethan.
I won't be here for a long time, I would be dying without him knowing.
Then again, I'm sure he doesn't like me at all. So what's the big fuss about?
"I-it's okay Danielle.." Ethan said as I hugged him tightly. I missed Ethan. His arms wrapped tighter around me and I snuggled into him. I missed his hugs. It made me feel warm and fuzzy.
"Hey my dude" Grayson said as we pulled apart. Ethan awkwardly shifted away as they did their 'bro handshake'.
"What are ya guys up to..?" Grayson said sitting besides me. His eyes widen with mine as we remember.
We're a couple.
His arm snakes around my waist and he pulled me closer as I let out a puff of air. I hated pretending. It sucks.
"Well I was just apologizing..." I said as grayson nodded. Ethan was on his phone scrolling through his feed on Instagram.
"I got to go... I'll see you guys later" I said as grayson lead me to the door.
"Okay this is awkward" he said as I nodded with a slight eye roll.
"Yeah, but thank you!" I whispered hugging him. He nodded and glanced back. He plants a small kiss on my cheek and I go.
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The next day, I was tired. Too tired to focus. It was school hours and I just couldn't handle all the new information thrown at me.
I walked down the halls as I got pushed into a wall. I groaned in pain as I saw these 3 girls with mad plastered all over their faces.
"You think you could come in and date Grayson? Ethan all sad? Your a real bitch" the girl spat as I was struggling from her grip.
"Its not even like that! Look, I dated Grayson cause I like him. Ethan was sad only because I didn't tell him! End of story!" I said as she landed on good punch in the face.
"That's for messing with the twins" she said as the rest of the girl walked off. I started to sob. My head hurt so bad. The pain on the front and back of my head as I banged into the locker. I don't understand why this would even happen!?
I made my way to the restroom and saw only a light bruise on my eye. I sighed running the back of my head.
I walked out sad, as the pain lingered on. It's not the pain that bothers me.
It's my life that bothers me.
Why does my life have to be so bad? All I ask for us a health lifestyle and 2 amazing friends that I have already.
I just want to be provided with a a life I'll never get.
Cause that's what cancer does.
You lose hope.
Note- uh whoa, I honestly don't know what I just wrote lmao.
If you don't read my Dolan twin imagines, I explained what's going on in my life right now. And as of right now I might have a concussion.
My brain isn't thinking good. Since I'm writing atm, the pain is coming back slowly, but it's worth it because you guys are amazing ❤
