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Danielle's Pov
I woke up the next morning and I felt good. I didn't feel icky. Like I normally do.
I then remembered Ethan kissed me. Ethan dolan KISSED me. He also ran off with no explanation and not one text message.
I got ready for school and my aunt had drove me.
"So mija, have you talked to Ethan?" I shook my head no.
"He hasn't texted or called me... I'm think i'm going to wait till he says something to me.." i don't know why i want to wait. i'm so eager to know why he did it. i mean i love the boy. i want to be with him. it's just that i have cancer. i cant do that to him. it would be quite selfish of me i think.
i got off the car and went to my locker immediately. I got stares. the pity stares. I knew immediately they had only felt sorry for me.
"Hey dani" I see grayson come up to me with ethan following behind.
"hi gray, hi eth!" i say giving grayson a hug. ethan just awkwardly stands there. i hug him but he's weird with it. i pull away quick.
"you feeling alright?" grayson asked. to be honest i felt okay. i just felt sad because ethan. ethan isn't being himself. i know what he did was a mistake. it made things weird for us.
"yea gray i'm goo-" the bell rang and then we were off to class.
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Ethan as avoided me all day. Grayson knows why. He just thinks it's hilarious.
"Dani, the boy just likes you. He doesn't think you like him back. I've talked to him" I frown.
"Grayson... I love him! How can he not see that? I just don't think I can do that to him. I am going to die. Why does he even like me. The dying girl" Wow that sounds extremely depressing but it was the truth.
"Dani. Don't speak like that. You will get better. We are all hoping for the best. Let him know how you feel" I thought about it the whole free period. I think I should say something first. I just don't want to hurt him when and if I do die.
"Danielle, you gotta stop thinking so negatively. You need to be positive. You have me and Ethan to help you with that" Grayson says with a smile. I believe him. They definitely will help me. I just don't know. I just have so many thoughts it's hard to control the positive and negative when it's just all negative.
Ethan came over and Grayson tensed up.
"Uh would you look at the time. My teacher needs me. He asked me to help him... Yea okay bye" He leaves and winks at me. Grayson is gonna pay for this.
"Ethan i-"
"No Danielle. Me first... I'm sorry for how I reacted. I just panicked. Danielle oh my gosh you have no idea how you make me feel. I'm sorry I ran off like some weenie. Danielle I kissed you because I like you. You make everything better. I although don't think I should have done what i've done. You didn't need that right now. You've lost ur parents, ur going through something so major it's absolutely insane. I am in pain for you. I was an idiot to try and pull something like that. I'm not saying I regret doing it because I definitely don't. I'm just very sorry for doing it if you didn't want it. It was extremely disrespectful. I didn't even ask for permission. I'm sorry" Ethan says pretty fast. I'm surprised. I kissed back. Why would he say I didn't want it. Of course I wanted it I kissed back...
"Ethan. I wanted it. I kissed back, shouldn't that have been enough to let you know I wanted it silly? I like you Ethan. I'm glad you kissed me. Even with everything going on, I am happy you did it. it made me extremely happy. with all that's gone on and is going on i needed that. ethan i like you but i don't think we should start talking. i'm dying. i don't want to hurt you" i frowned. i was truly sad. i could see how sad he was from the look on his face. it was quiet. just for a bit.
"danielle i don't care. i want you. i want you to be my girlfriend. you think your cancer will change it danielle no it won't. i love you for you. you're gonna be okay. i have high hopes you will. danielle i really, really like you. i have for like... wow a long time danielle. you need to stop saying that you're gonna hurt me. you won't. you never have and never will. we're gonna get through this together. i promise danielle" he said grabbing my hands. i looked at our hands. my hand was so frail and tiny compared to his.
"ethan are you sure you want this...?" i asked and ethan brought me to his embrace. i felt safe. i felt like all my worries were gone. it was like he's my cure.
"i'm positive. i like you so much danielle. i want to be with you. let me." we pulled away and i smiled and nodded. the grin on his face was spectacular. his pearly white teeth. he had a sudden glow.
"I'm happy danielle" ethan says. i smile. he's so cute. he deserves the world.
"me too ethan"
but i knew our happiness wouldn't last for long.
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