I stole the oxygen out of her lungs with one role of the sleeve
I put his silent mouth into shock with the happiness of my response
And I turned the music up
In my room in a singlet and thigh high socks
And I danced around in the fairy lights
And it was dancing like I'd never done before
Pressure building up until I screamed
I stood in the bathroom singing my lungs out, laughing and smiling
Raking nails up in down my arm to get back at her
I sat and ate my dinner, bouncing along to a song in my head
Because I didn't give a shit that he pretended I wasn't there
I aided in my own manipulation
But it was that or a cage
And I sat happily on my bedroom floor
Calmly considering taking all those pills in the cabinet
Would it be enough?
And what hurt?
I was happy
Just looking for a way to hurt them
I didn't
But their reactions made me want to so bad
