First to Go (Mafia!DazaixReader)

-Six-

After much thinking, I decided to just leave it be. The risks in such a place were to high and if I were caught, I'd probably be exterminated for my actions. I wanted to live to see another day instead of get answers, which was quire unlike me for how much I loved to dig deeper. I clearly didn't learn my lesson since I dug too deep and wound up here in the first place.

I put my phone in its charger and stretched my arms above my head, not sure of what else I could do. I wrote about my experiences and had to wait for my camera to fully charge before I did anymore filming. I sighed as I paced back and forth in my smaller room, glancing up at the calendar. Hard to believe, but I've been here for a couple weeks, nearing a month.

I awaited in my room for someone, particularly Dazai, to come in and tell me we had something to do. I was going insane as I walked back and forth. I couldn't do anything that I knew of. I figured that I could probably talk to some of the other members within the Port Mafia, but I don't know how well that would go because of my previous encounter with Akutagawa.

I sighed and decided to leave my quarters to find something to do. I left everything behind so I could just wander freely, maybe learn a few more things here and there to write down for the sake of doing so.

~One Week Time Skip~

Nothing had seemed to change much since then, I would still go on assignments with Dazai and would film some of his many antics. But when I wasn't adventuring outside, I was trapped inside in my room and at the Port Mafia's headquarters. I know that I got myself into it by accident, yet I couldn't help but long for freedom away from here. I still got the feeling that not many of the members liked me, mostly since I never initiated into here and since I was new.

I sat at my desk writing a personal article about the life as a member of the Mafia, just starting on it after putting it off for quite some time. I wrote a few sentences in the manuscript, but felt my lack of motivation grow. I have lived this life for what felt like forever, and writing it was the same as reliving everything I went through all over again. A soft sigh escaped from my lips as I rested my hands on the desk, finding myself now unable to write a word. Ideas filled my mind, but writing them down felt impossible. I stood up and stretched my arms above me; maybe a little walk is all that I need to get my motivation going again. Who knows, maybe instead of getting into a fight with one of the Port Mafia officials I can actually try and make someone's acquaintance.

After returning my arms to my side, I went over to my door and left my chamber. I made my way to the main entry, the same place where I got into a fight with Akutagawa... I hope he isn't there. I whenever I passed through with Dazai, I could feel his stare the most dig into the back of my neck like blades, always making me feel threatened despite being with a Port Mafia executive.

The room was bustling with a crowd of mercenaries, thieves, and other assorted members of the Mafia. I glanced around the room cautiously, keeping an eye out for Akutagawa. Since that encounter I've been overly cautious, particularly when I was alone and without someone. I was feeling like a goldfish in a sea of piranhas, like any of them was ready to pick a fight with the outsider.

I slowly made my way through the group, trying to see if there was anyone who I could see myself being friends with in the future. I was so focused in my search that I barely paid attention to where I was walking, tripping like a moron occasionally and hearing a few snickers out of the people who saw me. Before I knew it, I felt myself run into someone. I quickly looked up, praying that it wasn't Akutagawa and, if it was, that he didn't want to kill me.

However, as I looked upon who I bumped, I saw an unfamiliar face, a young man with soft-looking pale skin and brown-red hair. He had strong, blue eyes, yet they seemed gentle. He wore a dark brown shirt with a light colored jacket over it. I haven't seen him around here before, but unlike the other members here, he didn't seem as intimidating as the rest.