My Wildest Dreams

#6

Drew's POV

IDIOT! IDIOT! IDIOT!
I can't believe I just kissed her and walked out of there like that. I should have said something. SHE should have said something. ONE OF US SHOULD HAVE SPOKEN!

I've just left Maz's room. I cross the hall and enter my room closing the door behind me. I make my way to my bed and take out my phone to call Jay.

He answers after 2 rings.
"Hey man what's up?"
"I did it Jay. I fucked it up just like I knew I would." I say in a panic annoyed at myself.
"Okay drew calm down. I'm sure whatever it is it's not that bad. Just breath man. Tell what's happened."
I take a deep breath.
"I kissed her Jay. I kissed her, and to make it worse I then just walked out. Without saying anything. We were dancing and having fun and I messed it up. I ruined it. I'm an idiot and now I don't know what to do. The look on her face. You know I can't even remember the look on her face I left so quick." I sigh.
There is silence on the other end of the phone. It's so quiet that I begin to think he has hung up on me.
"Hello Jay... you still there?"
"Yeah I'm still here. I just don't know what to tell you. I mean I'm surprised you had the balls to do it in the first place. I mean we all know how you feel about her. Heck we knew before you did, but never thought you'd actually act on it. Look, I think the main thing is she didn't freak out on you. So that's a good thing. She's obviously not mad. But the only thing I can say is that you really should have said something. You know rather then just walk out, cause now guarantee it's awkward and it's gonna take a bit of time to come back from that and she probably thinks you regret it. Which you don't but you definitely didn't make that clear. I think you just need to wait and find the right time to step in and talk to her about it and make it clear what your intentions were and are. But you know aswell as I do it's timing. You need to find the right moment for that conversation and that moment is when the awkwardness is gone even just for a minute. Depending on the situation of course. I mean if she's there screaming her head off at you then that's definitely not the right moment." We both laugh at this. I laugh mainly because I couldn't imagine Maz getting so angry. About anything.
"Thanks man. I no longer feel the need to pull out my hair."
"DUDE! You can't pull out your hair it's bloody perfect. I'd freaking kill you."
"Hahaa sometimes Jay, just sometimes, you worry me."
"Yeah... I worry myself too. But heck it's fun. Look I gotta sleep. Talk to you."
"Bye."

Okay so I just have to wait and tell her. I just hope she doesn't hate me.
I lie down on my bed and although it's still earlyish, I'm so tired that even though my mind is going 90 I just can't keep my eyes open. It's been a long day and I hope tomorrow is much shorter.

                Marissa's POV

After Drew left my room lastnight I sat on my bad for awhile listening to more of my music trying to comprehend what had happened. Why didn't he say something? Why did he just leave? And most of all... Why did he kiss me?  Of course I couldn't ask him these questions as, well... I am a chicken. I am the biggest coward you would probably ever have the misfortune of meeting. So there is no way I could ask him.

It's 9:30 on Sunday morning and it's still just myself and Drew in the house. The others haven't come back yet. Hopefully they won't be too long more.

I get out bed and don't bother changing out of my pjs before going downstairs to the kitchen. The kitchen is empty so I assume Drew is still asleep. It's so unusually quiet with the others gone and me being the only one up.

I search the presses to see what food is available to me and finally decide on making French toast. I've just started cooking as I hear movement on the stairs. Drew must be up and coming down for breakfast.

He enters the kitchen looking at his phone.
"Hey." I cautiously greet. I can already feel the awkward air. Drew jumps a little with shock. He must not have known I was in here.
"Ummmm... Hi." He replies sleepily. He must have only just woken up. I return to my cooking when it's nearly ready I turn to Drew.
"Ahhh... would you um like some... breakfast? Maybe?"
He looks up from his phone again nodding his head and thanking me. I make some more and put it on a plate for drew. I set it on the table in front of him, and then sit down to my own. He thanks me for the food and we eat in awkward silence.

Not a word is said while we eat. And silence again as we clean up. Once I've my stuff put away I leave the kitchen and Drew in it and retreat to my bedroom. I put on Netflix and start watching the newest episode of 'shadowhunters' as I have not yet gotten around to watching it this week.

When that's finished I put on 'Grown ups' which keeps me going till the others arrive home around 12.

Sheila makes lunch for 2 o'clock and we all sit down to eat except Drew he's gone to one of his friends houses. I can't help but feel it's to avoid me.

I go back up stairs after helping Sheila clean up and watch some more movies before going to bed. It's a Sunday night and I have school in the morning so I go to sleep at around 11.

However it's a very restless sleep. And the problem with that is I can't even confront my problem.

I'm woken up at 6:30 the next morning by the sound of king Julian singing "I like to move it". Well it's 6:30 on a Monday morning so I can tell you I DEFINITELY... DO NOT... LIKE TO MOVE IT.

I do however get up anyway and hop in to the shower, 20 minutes later I'm out of the shower and putting on my uniform. I head down stairs once I'm dressed and have a slice of toast for breakfast. By the time I'm finished so is Drew and it's time for us to leave for school.

He has to drive me to school again and I just know the journey is going to be filled with awkward silence just as breakfast was yesterday.

He grabs his keys and we hop in the car and just as I expected. Silence. Not even music. I feel to awkward to even suggest it. 

We arrive at the school 15 minutes later and I can honestly say I've never been so glad to arrive at school. It's now 8:45 and we have 15 minutes until class starts I make my way into the school and to my locker and get my books for the first three classes, and make it to my first class before the second bell.

When lunch arrives I meet the girls at the lockers. I haven't told them about Drew and the kiss cause I know they would have a freak attack if they found out.

"Hey Marissa." Amy greets me with a hug.
"Hey." I respond returning the hug.
"Hey guys." I hear Tara say as I watch her wave at someone behind me.
"Hey Tara what's up?" I hear the familiar voice of Brendan responding. I turn around to find that the 4 lads are now standing behind me all with smiles on there faces one however looks a little awkward and forced. I smile and wave a the lads as my form of greeting. And again the air is awkward.

"So what you girls up to?" Damien asks.
"Nothing yet just about to go get some lunch. Wanna join?" Now its Nina who speaks which surprises me as she doesn't usually like other people joining our little group.
"Sure." Brendan and Damien respond and we all start walking towards the canteen.
It remains awkward for the rest of lunch although I'm not sure the others have noticed. Except maybe Jason he seems to be watching myself and Drew with a very close eye.

After lunch we return to class and before ya know it the day is over and it's time to go home.

Drew and I don't speak for the rest of the day. We got home ate dinner and then I did my homework. And now here I am lying on my bed. Trying to think of anything but Drew so that I might fall asleep. It's 2 in the morning before this eventually happens and I end up with only 4 and a half hours sleep. Let's just hope that tomorrow is better and that when I wake up I feel like the day is good. It's like they say tomorrow is another day.