Poems of life's Ups And Downs

The silenced finally speak

Trigger warning..this poem talks of some harsh topics such as abuse, neglect, mental illness, past harmful intent on another living person. ------Also I'm using a phone to do this so it might not be the greatest____If you see my other stories and such I would like to clarify this is about my adoptive mother._________-----_----------------------------------------------------Hi Mom, it's me.
In case you forgot it's your daughter silly.

Aren't you glad to see me?     Either way I think you owe me an apology.

Don't ask "What for?" Because you already know.
There is no more evidence I can show.

I let you know what they did,
And now you're choosing to play stupid!

You knew I got worse every time I went.
But regardless eight times I was sent.

Thirty confirmed since twenty- fourteen,
But you wouldn't listened when I spoke of what I've seen!

When I was there I'd beg to return.
By the third time I expected you to learn.

You did but it wasn't the right way.
You learned I was afraid so I'd do anything to stay.

I could no longer be a kid without being threatened to be sent away.
So does it really surprise you why I became so stray?

Children are to be seen not heard,
So I'm not shocked when I spoke you never remembered.

I became extremely violent I'll admit.
But wouldn't you if you were being hurt and couldn't prove it?

Eventually I stopped protesting going back there.
You stopped sending me after you saw I didn't care.

As a kid I wasn't safe at home or there.
As a minor I had no place else to go so I wasn't safe anywhere.

Eventually I became a supposed danger to the family.
But just ask anyone who knows me personally.

They'll say I'm kind, calm, and helpful.
Anyone who only sees one side says I'm scary, crazy or spiteful.

Growing up with you as the parent and me as the child,
I knew I was safe as long as YOU smiled.

Though it is true at one point I wanted you dead,
I've decided to do something else instead.

Because I've visited and I've seen your state
Remember----- " You haven't finished all the pride on your plate.

Remember to chew then swallow or you'll choke on it.
And until it's gone you'll just have to sit.

For dessert you can have that cake you made for you.
And yes you have to eat it too"_______

You see I no longer wish to 'physically' hurt you,
Because that would be nothing compared to what you put me through.