dear mom,
dear dad,
dear sister,
i just can't do this anymore.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry i didn't say anything and i'm sorry i couldn't fake a smile anymore.
and i'm sorry i couldn't be the daughter you anticipated me to be.
i'm..
really sorry.
dear best friend,
dear friend,
dear boy i passed in the halls,
dear anyone whose listening i'm sorry i didn't tell anyone i needed help.
i mean, you couldn't have helped me anyways i simply cannot be fixed.
and i'm sorry I had to end it like this.
and i'm sorry you had to see how broken I was.
and- i'm sorry.
i didn't want you to find out this way, i should have said something before but what was i to say?
my words were always jumbled up like a child trying to hold a conversation for the first time.
i couldn't collect all my thoughts on a sheet of paper, my mind was racing.
everything started to kick in.
my hands started to shake.
and my legs collapsed,
i closed my eyes.
and everything slowly, slipped away from me.
i'm sorry.
