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JASPER

I don't know why but Diana has changed. Something has changed.  3 mggu suda kami tggl sama2, tp kami xtidur sama2. Sex jgn ckp la.  It's ok. Kalau dia x ready sya ok. Sya syg dia bukan sbb sex. Tp dia nampak distracted. And jumpy. Sya pgg tgn dia pun dia terkejut pg tarik blk. Lepas tu baru dia pgg tgn sya blk.  Sya tnya pun dia geleng kepala ja.  Suda la dia resign tiba2 ndak kasitaw sya.  Bikin geram juga. Bergaduh besar kami masa dia bgtau dia resign tu. Awal pagi dia ikut sya pg ofis just to formally hand in her registration letter sma sya. Sya igt dia mau ikut sya masuk kerja.  Dia xtggu pun sya accept ka ndak tu, dia terus kemas meja2 dia, kiss and hugs staff lain, lepas tu dia blk sndr. Terus sya ambik half day bubut dia d ruma.

J: why are you doing this Diana? Sya berabis kasi yakin upper management untuk let you keep your position, tp skrg ko resign? Without even consulting me?

D: jeez J. Cool down. Sya suda bilang sya mau independent kan.

J: exactly!jd mgpa ko resign?

D: i don't like my job there.

J: itu seja?

Diana angguk kepala. Dgn muka yg innocent.

J: atau sbb ko namaw kerja sma2 sya? Namaw jumpa sya d ofis sbb di ruma muka sya jga ko nmpk?

D: haha! Ndak bha. Betul.

Ketawa pula dia sana.

J: atau sbb Don? Ko msh ada feeling sma dia so ko namaw terjumpa dia lg?

D: well… ada sikit la.sya namau jumpa dia, but bukan sbb sya msh ada feeling. Sya betul2 moved on suda dr dia J.

J: so? Xkan as simple as that? Ko xsuka kerja ko? Itu seja?

D: okay.. Let's cool down first. Mgpa juga ko mrh betul ni?

J: sbb ko buat decision ndak peduli feeling sya!

D: xpyh la mau tggi suara bha.

Tgk tu. Punya dingin. Muka dia lg yg tiada feeling bha. Tapi jwpn dia lepas tu bikin sya checkmate.

D: pttnya ko happy.  Sya tiada kerja, means sya tiada duit, means sya xdpt cr rumah dlm masa terdekat, means sya tggl sini lama sikit.

Dush! Sya ndak terfikir pula tu. Yg lg bodohnya sya terus happy dgr jwpn dia. Betul juga. Sya xdpt jumpa dia di ofis tp sya jmpa dia d rumah. Lg bgs. Kami 2 seja di rumah. Terkeluar senyuman bodoh sya terus. Diana geleng2 kepala ja baru dia ketuk dahi sya. Tp lepas tu dia dingin blk.

DIANA

Sya fikir blk apa yg Aurora ckp masa counseling td.  Ini counseling ke 3 suda. Dia msh belum tnya apa2 psl kes sya. Tp sya bgtau dia almost half of my past suda.  And sya mnta nasihat cmna maw forgive Jasper.

A: do you love him?

Sya fikir sekejap lepas tu sya angguk.

D: tp sya msh marah. And i don't know how to confront him about this.

A: let me give you a homework. Ko blh bg sya jwpn bila2 masa seja. You got my personal number.

D: homework?

A: ya..  1st sya mau ko put yourself in his shoes. Kalau ko jadi dia, masa tu, what will you think? What will you do?

Sya angguk2 lg.

A: then kalau ko dpt faham suda, and you still can't forgive him, sya rasa ko xpatut bg dia harapan. But, kalau ko rasa blh forgive him, and understood him, sya mau ko feel his love. Everything he do, every words he said, everytime he touch you. Try and find and feel his love.  

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