The Stranger With Blue Eyes ~Phan AU~

chapter 5

The next couple of weeks were quite productive and interesting, if I do say so myself. I've been slowly getting better at these exercises and stretches. I do feel like I've lost a couple pounds and have the tiniest bit of muscles.

As for these weeks being interesting? Well, let's just say someone will be getting laid soon.

Pj has been doing non-stop flirting ever since that day. I flirted back, of course. But I don't feel anything towards him. He's just someone that'll help with my sexual frustration or whatever. I know, I know. It's bad, rude and totally uncalled for but if I'm gonna be stuck here for three months with a hot dude then why not take advantage of it? It's not like I'm gonna loose my virginity to anyone else. I would try something with the girls but for some unknown reason, I don't find them sexually attractive.

Pj pushes me harshly against the closet wall, kissing me deeply, making me drop my journal and forgetting everyrhomh. My breath gets taken away as moves his lips to my neck, kissing and making marks in certain spots.

I moan, loudly as Pj gets to my sweet spot on my neck. I didn't know i had a sweet spot but fuck it felt so good. I hope no one can hear us because that would be embarrassing.

I grab hold of his brown, curly locks and pull slightly. He let's out a moan and starts to grind against me. I smirk at him as we both grind against each other.

Pj starts to tug at my shirt, slowly lifting it up until it's all the way off of me. He then peppered kisses all over my chest moving down to my stomach until he reaches my hips.

I look down at him to see him trying to pull my pants down. Freaking out, I pull my pants up and laugh nervously.

"I think that's enough for now, Pj."

Pj gets up from the ground and rolls his eyes.

"You know that you always do this, right?" he asks.

I nod.

Honestly, I don't know why I won't let him go further then making out. I actually want to go further but I just get all scared. We've been doing this for two weeks now. I don't know if I even wanna continue this.

"I'm gonna go shower. See ya later, Danny."

Pj walks out of the closet door, leaving it open for me.

God, what have I gotten myself into?

****

We were in the gym again, doing exercises. We each did different ones. For the last week Chris said that we will be doing more of what we most struggle with so he split us up and told us which exercises to do.

Louis struggled with running, Pj struggled with lunges, Cat struggled with burpees and I struggled with push-ups. Every other exercise we had done we were already good at and didn't need to practice as much.

We're most likely going to start a different training tomorrow but I don't think we're gonna stop doing the exercises in the morning because we'll get weak or whatever.

I try to lift myself up as I pushed down to the floor. I take a deep, shaky breath, as I lift myself off the ground with my arms straight up below me and my legs stretched far. I focus on making my back straight and doing the push-up right. I've been doing pretty good so far and I think I'm getting the hang of this.

"Water break!" Chris shouts from the other side of the room.

I get up from the ground and run my hands through my sweaty hair. Scrunching my face up in disgust, I wipe my hand on my jeans. I head to where the water bottles are at and sit down on a bench.

"Mind if we can have a little chat?"

Looking up I see Louise hovering over me, looking kind of disappointed.

"Yeah, sure." I say as I pat the seat next to me, gesturing her to sit.

She sits down, facing me and smiles.

"So, there's a rumor going around that you and Pj are a thing." She wiggles her eyebrows slightly.

"We're really not." I say. "I'm not really shocked that people found out but we aren't a thing. I don't know what we are."

"Do you like him?"

"No? Yes? I honestly don't know. He's cute and all but I don't think I'd ever wanna be with him."

She scoffs. "It doesn't even seem like you like him at all. Why did you guys even try? When we get to the surface I wouldn't doubt if he tried to kill you, honestly. "

"It's only been a few weeks, maybe if I have a little more time then I'll know how I feel and I wouldn't doubt it either."

"You need to stop doing whatever you're doing with him. Period." she demanded. "He's going to get hurt and you might end up dead. We need to focus on Turing to survive. Oh and I talked to him about this already."

"Whatever. We'll talk then." I roll my eyes.

"Great! I'll go get him." She says, excitedly.

She gets up and is about to run off but I quickly grab the hem of her shirt to stop her.

"We'll talk when we're in our rooms. Not now."

She rolls her eyes and mumbles fine then walks away.

****

"So, Louise talked to me about our, whatever this is." Pj says awkwardly as he sits on the bed next to me.

I look up at him, trying to figure out what he feels. I know he doesn't want to talk about this but we have to.

He isn't looking at me, only at the ground and is fiddling with his fingers.

"Yeah? What do you suggest then, Pj?" I ask him while I still stare at him, taking in every aspect of what he does to know how he truly feels.

He looks up at me suddenly and my breath hitches because of how hurt he looks.

"I agree with her but then I don't. Look, I really like you, Dan. But I don't think you like me as much as I like you and I don't want to get hurt because of how much effort I might be putting in this while you're not even doing as much effort."

I'm at a loss of words for a couple of minutes, trying to take everything he just said to me in. I completely understand where he's coming from. I don't like him as much as he does and I feel terrible about it because I wish I did but I just don't. I also don't want to hurt him so maybe doing this will be the right thing? I have no idea to be honest but maybe I should ask him for a couple more weeks to prove to him that I am capable of liking him as much as he does.

"Can you give me a couple of weeks to prove to you that I do like you as much as you do? And if I don't prove it to you then we can break things off. I promise." I plead.

I give him a nervous look as I say this and his face does sort of lighten up as I say these things to him.

"Oh, god. I actually thought we would end it. I don't want to and I'm willing to give you a chance to prove yourself to me." He said as he gets up to embrace me.

I wrap my arms around his neck, smiling. His arms around my waist. Our chest closely together as we look into each others eyes.

I get lost in his green eyes for a second and admire his beauty. His eyes remind me so much of how green grass sparkles in the morning right after it had rained.

I've seen these in some films that were apparently what the world used to be like. It was so beautiful. He was beautiful but what I can't seem to understand is why I don't feel the same way as him. Yet. I know that if we have more time together I will eventually fall for him, maybe. At least I hope so.