All Fall Down

Chapter 11

Abigail's POV

Watching Ryan perform always made me happy, he was like a tonic. I watched as he bounced all over the stage, then suddenly the music slowed right down and I recognised the melody instantly "This next one hasn't been released yet, it's a song I wrote a while ago...for my beautiful wife Abi..."

'Well I see breakfast on the table, and I can smell you in the halls.
Lord knows I'd cry if I was able, but that won't get me through tomorrow.
And no its not like I was counting or thought that we'd run out of days.
So I'll be holding onto something, breathing the air you took away...I

I'll keep a picture of you on the wall, of you on the wall and choke on the memory...

I felt the tear's burn my eyes as Ryan sang the song he had written for me during my relapse. The song he wrote when he thought he was going to lose me...a song he wrote when he was scared.

'I see your clothes in the closet, I hear your phone ring in the drawer...

I'm not hoping for an answer I'm just knocking at your door'

The moment the gospel backing singers kicked in behind them I found myself fall apart.

A group of girls behind me had noticed I was in tears, the camera zoomed in on Ryan as he climbed down of stage and came over. He pulled me into his arms and kissed my head "I love you" He whispered and some of the crowd cheered.

"I love you too" I replied and kissed him quick before he needed to sing again.

"You okay" He asked in between lyrics, I manage to nod my head and he kissed me again and started to walk back to the stage.

Leroy suddenly appeared beside me "Where have you been?" I asked and he half smiled "Leroy what is it?"

"It's nothing" Leroy tried to hide his concern, but I'd known him too long "Leroy just tell me"

"Ryan said I..." Leroy replied and I felt my temperature rise.

"Ryan said what? What are you hiding from me? Huh!" I felt my eyebrows raise "Just fucking tell me, he will when he's finished anyway..."

"There's been a break in at the studio"  I gasp at Leroy's revelation "It's been completely trashed and we think some demo music's missing"

"What?" My heart raced as I looked onto the stage, Ryan was singing If I lose Myself "Why didn't he say anything? Do you know what music it was?"

"No, we found out just before they went on stage. Ryan's heading over there after the show..." Leroy explained "He didn't want you to worry..."

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Ryan's POV

I had a feeling Leroy had told Abi about the break-in. I mean the look on her face as she approached us said it all really "Hey baby" I gasped for breath as I grabbed a towel off one of the assistants.

"Why didn't you tell me about the break in?" Her voice was surprisingly gentle "I've arranged for a couple of cars to take us down there"

"Us" I shake my head "No Abs, we don't know whats..." Before I can finish my sentence I feel her take my hand in hers.

"It's sweet that you want to keep me safe baby" She says softly "But we're in this together rememeber"

×-×-×

The whole place has been destroyed, hardly anything was salvageable. The mixing desks, the sound equipment, guitars, Keyboards "Jesus" Abi followed me into the office "Can we?"

"Yeah, the police have already dusted for prints and got what evidence they can" Leroy spoke up from behind us. I head over to the filing cabinet, where I keep all the music and demos which haven't been released yet. My hand is searching for one song in particular. As I look through I don't notice Abi picking up a notebook.

"Ryan" she gasps and I look up instantly, tears are forming in her eyes.

"What is it?" I rush towards her and see she has found the song I was looking for. I see Leroy leave out of the corner of my eye.

"What are we doing?" she sniffs as she looks into my eyes and for once I don't have the answers "What's happening to us?"

"Nothing it's just a..." I try and justify my words, knowing full well she already knows what the songs about.

Abi doesn't say anything else, she slowly reaches into her purse and pulls out a bottle of pills "I don't..." My heart begins to race as she puts them in my hand.

"I found them earlier, I've taken four so far. Four of those and half a bottle of Jack..." The tear's have escaped her beautiful eyes and are now falling down her cheek. How could I not know? How could I not realise she had fallen so low again?

"How did we let this get bigger than us?" I say and she almost collapses into my arms.

"I don't know" She sniffs as she looks up into my eyes "But I can't lose you...I don't want to lose you"

"You won't" I move some hair from her face "Because I promise you Abigail Tedder, I'm not giving up on us...I'm not gonna walk away...or roll my eyes" I add with a smile and she laughs a little. I rest my forehead on hers, and inhale deeply, taking in her eyes "I'm gonna fix you, I'm gonna fix us..."

Abi didn't speak she just moved her hand to the back of my neck and kissed me, gentle at first and then the intensity kicked in.

"Take me somewhere" She gasped as she pulled away, the moment had taken us to the desk. She was sat on it now "Not here, not home...somewhere it's just you and me"

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Abigail's POV

Ryan and I had found ourselves in a room at the Hilton Hotel, just a couple of blocks away from the studio. I wasn't really sure why, but something inside me told me we needed this.

I text Leroy and told him to lock up the studio and I'd see him in the morning. Luckily my Mom was already having Lillia overnight so we had some free time. The original plan was to head out with Drew, Brent, Eddie, Brian and Zach, but plans change I guess.

I watched as Ryan closed the hotel door behind us, it wasn't long before our body's connected again. Everything in the outside world was forgotten, we were lost in eachother.

His hands felt good against my skin and suddenly I was reminded of the love we shared, the relationship we had once indulged in. In one effortless movement on Ryan's part I found myself lifted off the ground, he had wrapped my legs around his waist and was carrying me over to the bed "You're so perfect" he whispered into my neck, his hot breath and unshaven skin made my heart race and my pulse quicken.

I felt my body arch into him as he ran his hand up my thigh and under my skirt "Every part of you is incredible...and it's mine, and I'm all yours" his voice faded as I unbuttoned his pants and pulled his shirt off over his head.

For the first time in a while I actually felt like his wife again, we had both gotten so lost in grief and all the drama we had forgotten what we meant to eachother and the reason we got married. Ryan was right, we needed to fix us.