I Have Hope

I Have Faith In God

The next day was completely normal but until I came home late at the night and continued painting my new portrait which I called " Lost but Found " , the portrait described me very much and I used colors that could give the viewer the feel of lost but found , I hope you understood ! After finishing it I had a thought about why couldn't I start selling some art and getting some money out of it? I loved that Idea and I got excited too much I couldnt sleep which totally affected my next day!
I woke up the next day (barely) and before going to work , I passed by Madam Mary and told her my idea, she loved it and said she would love to help.
She asked me to bring her all my paintings the next day, because I couldn't at the moment , I had work and I could not be late!
But I just was not able to wait for the next 24 hours to pass by , oh I'm so excited to see what she Will say about my paintings because I really like them but I don't know if they are worth buying..

Waking up later than always, I picked up the paintings and left the house quickly.
When I reached Madam Mary's Shop , I jumped in and excitedly looked for Madam Mary, but I couldn't find her anywhere.
I discovered as I was walking around the dull aura forming in the place, the area had a negative feeling and it's not sparkly like always , I swallowed a lump in my throat and started praying that I'm just overreacting and need some pills and totally nothing happened with Madam Mary..
As soon as I saw her assistant , I rushed to her and freaked her out accidentally , I asked her where Madam Mary is .

She looked at my with teary eyes, and didn't answer.
I shouted " MADAM MARY , WHERE IS SHE " I cried for an answer, I shook my head in denial of anything, I'm not ready for more loss in my life ! My heart was chilling in my intestines, I was totally not ready to hear what I was expecting.
The moment she heard Madam Mary's name she gasped and cried more, I lost my sense that moment, I have loved Madam Mary so much , I don't need more dead people in my memories.......guess I really was a jinx .
The assistant took a deep breathe and stared at me dead serious " Well I don't know how to say this but....." she sniffed and my heart beat were out of control !
I was praying so hard that she wouldn't say what I feared she would say but she did , partially....

She continued " with my Full Condolences , I would like to mourn to you that....." she sniffed again .
I couldn't bear it so I screamed " WHAT? SPILL IT" I was wrong in all ways for screaming at an older woman ? But I was burning inside , I couldn't handle it!!
" okay! Well....um....Ja-Jasmine left us 12:30 last night " she covered her face and started weeping ahd turned her back at me , drama stopped and I looked at her in confusion " Jasmine?? Who is Jasmine ? " I questioned as my face got back normal and all my body shaking crisis disappeared and I got relieved but still depressed over that unknown female .
She looked at me fast and shockingly said " Ha?? You don't know Jasmine? She is the Madam's only Grand Child"
" how could I know her? " I said that while I was crying inside , just imagine, she was her only Grand Child, how hard is that?😭
" Don't you remember the Sales Girl?" She reminded me.
I gasped in horror " What? That's her , the Cute Brunnette Girl with ponytails?"
As she nodded her head in incline , I almost fainted from the idea of this cute girl's soul ripped out of her.
I ran out of the store leaving the Paintings on the floor .
Rushing home , My Tears were flying all around, I wanted to die as well!!
If I hadn't met that girl and didn't jinx her , she could be playing out in the park now!! She seemed healthy , she could have lived longer than 100 , oh god !!!
Blaming everything on me was the only choice as I binned my shoes and bag on the floor , threw myself on the bed and Cried for 3 approximate hours....no joke!
I felt defeated, couldn't breathe well , I have always wanted to help people not to KILL them!! I felt overdramatic but when you have too much to handle , all you need is a little push and I was not only crying because a kid died , but I'm also thinking about that cheerful face of Madam Mary is going to get dull for months and I can't handle darkness in my life, oh how can I help ?!?!
As I stood up and washed my face , my head was killing me due to too much crying, I took a tablet and tried to sleep , but obviously couldn't, I looked at my miserable face and I castigated myself but my lazy dark self wouldn't listen and my happy self was out on a vacation to Japan!