I Have Hope

Getting older and wiser

I'm 14 years old and I'll be turning 15 next week, I've seen on the TV, inside a Tv store, that people usually celebrates it with balloons and cakes around family and friends, the only time I've seen a birthday party was almost two years ago, the rich lady's party... And I didn't join in the traditions because I wasn't very sure of its way and my uncle back then didn't celebrate any of my cousins' birthdays.
I really want to celebrate and enjoy a day for myself and maybe I'll get gifts like the rich lady but the huge problem is, I don't have a family nor friends... I mean, I did get close to Elma at my first job but we never hung out after work so I'm not very sure how strong our relationship is.
Don't get me wrong I undoubtedly do know what birthdays are and the basic objective of it but its just that I never got myself into one to know the sequence of events in that occasion, and there is a possibility I'm over dramatic about the whole situation!

"Hmmmmm" I said as the smile tore my face from the exhilarating aroma coming from the bakery under my apartment, I love bread and everything about it... Specifically 7am bread aroma, it's the best!
Evidently, today will be beautiful hopefully, I woke up an hour earlier and took the chance to take a bath, rock my hair with some curls, ate a banana and a spoon of honey as I was reading the daily prayers.
I'm really excited to wear my brand new, hot ,red sketchers that I got last Friday, along with my red bag and headband, I am going to rock this red outfit!
Mr. Yop complimented my taste and I was very appreciative by complimenting his beautiful bread too.
Today started out good, until I saw madam Mary's store is closed, I had a negative goosebump, I was not really sure what that was all about but I didn't have a good feeling about it.... Probably because I was really excited to show her my expensive 289 dollars outfit! Really expensive for my pocket!
I think I'm a really bad money user, maybe that's why my life is this way!
I knocked the door so hard but for real, no one was there, I was confused.
Slapping myself awake, I walked to the restaurant convincing myself I'm overreacting!
Two days after and madam Mary was not seen, today her store was open but she wasn't there.
I stared at the plate that had Madam Mary in pink cursive words under it small white "Library-Bookstore-stationary and more ".... Really missed her!
I thought giving her a visit is the most responsible thing to do considering that no one is replying to my nagging about her absence!
I waited till my two shifts were done and went back to her store to ask for her address and thankfully the nice secretary answered me, I love her so much, she is very kind.

Walking fast and chanting " Street 5 house 43.... Street 5 house 43 " As I was walking past street 4, trying to guess everything about her, her condition, her house and just.. Everything!
"FOUND IT " I screamed initially as I stared at the carved 43 on the wall of a middle size, beige house in street 5....I knocked the door nervously as she could be possibly not able to open the door.
Minutes passed and I almost sweared to leave this calm area , the red sparkly door was pulled slowly to the back creating a screeching voice that I dread, madam Mary was there, all healthy but seemingly tired, her short curly copper brown hair was messed up and she was wearing a green shirt with a hot red leggings.... Totally not what I got used to see.
"Sweetie! How did you find me? " She nervously said as she gestured for me to get inside, "I asked Sierra, she was sitting in your place as she told me your address" I replied as I was managing to politely place my rotten blue sandals.
"So" I opened up "where have you been all this time? It felt like months! ", she narrowed her eyes, then widen them up and replied" Honey, I don't know how can I inform you this the right way so please be mature about it "... Okay, this is not a good start and I don't want to hear no more!
" Well, you see, my son, right after his daughter left humanhood, he left for Spain for a refreshment along with his wife, he loved the people there and really enjoyed all the festivals and their accent.... Literally everything about Spain! ", I widened my eyes real big and my heart beat got higher as I gestured to continue fast ,so she did " Zay, he is my only son and after my husband died in 1999,all I've done was be with him.. Please understand that I love you and care about you but on a higher priority, I need to be with him, specifically that his wife will be having a son in 4 months and I'm too excited and I can't stop thinking if he look like his sister, do you u-understand? ".
I smiled gradually and then fangirled " Oh my god! A son! I'm super duper glad, that's the best thing I've ever heard today... You will totally love Spain, we had a customer last Monday from Spain and he gave me a Spanish coin " Pulling the silver coin from my extremely small pocket "look how beautiful! Take that to remember me because you know I don't need anything to remember you for I will be remembering you until I'm 70 years old! " That was a very emotional statement but I tried to say it in the most positive way because it was the best thing to do at that time.