coffee stains

sorry

i broke you.
and i swear i saw
the glint of sadness
and ache
on your eyes
the moment it met mine.

i broke you.
being the selfish person i was,
only building walls
strengthening bricks,
burning bridges,
not letting you in.

i broke you.
and i swear i strongly felt
regret the moment
i saw tears stain your cheeks.
you don't know, you just don't know
how bad i wanted to wipe them

but i couldn't.
because that's what i am-
a coward. i don't deserve you
and i don't want you
to be involved in this mess i'm in,
for it might wear you thin.

i broke you.
i feel awful that i do,
felt awful
how i never even
let you know
how i felt for you.

(i was so scared that you might burn
when you get closer to the fire. i'm sorry.)