What If I Say No?

Unexpected Meeting

Then tomorrow has come, here I am now in school, still thinking about her. Oh my gosh I can't believe I'm going to talk to her again. I can't believe I would confess or speak about what I feel. That's so not me. That's one of the difficult things I would do. And I have already promised to myself that I will not see her again. But nahh ok, right now I believe things will always get better. I'll give her a chance. Somewhat it makes me sad of what my ego says, I should not leave her wondering and stop making her crazier. Her boyfriend is my classmate in this day. He called me and asked about our friendship. Urgh. I know he will ask. Of course he's reading our conversation. That girl is talking to me using his account. -.-

Him: "So what's now? You two are going to meet each other later, right?"

Me: Yes. I said after class.

Him: "You're going to her house again right? That's what she said. You two will talk at her home, not here. You want me to call her?"

Me: "No. I'm ok!! It's ok. I'll talk to her later. You don't have to call her."

After class, Danielle and I are classmates. So of course we would talk. We're talking about movies. I told her that I'm not free after class. I'll go somewhere. So she asked "Where? I thought we're going to watch a movie." So I said the truth. "I'm going to talk to *insert her unique name* again". (Ok, so let's call her Marilyn, she loves Marilyn Monroe so much)

Danielle: "What? I thought you guys are already over? I thought you're sick and tired of her?"

Me: "She pmed me last night... (I told everything what we talked about last night in facebook)"

She knows what I'm going through.

Danielle: "Hmpf, Ok. You made a choice now. But you can still talk about that here in school. You don't have to go to her house again. I know you really don't want it. Have the authority, please. Tell me, what's the point? She just wants you to still follow her. That's so unreasonable. I know you're scared too and you feel awkward."

Nice one, Dane. You always speak both of my id & ego of my psyche. You made it conscious. I know she understands me, especially she have that kind of mermaid soul. She has the kind of characteristics like me that would still love to be alone sometimes, even though she's really talkative.

...and then his boyfriend came to us in the classroom.

Him: "Hey I just called her. Wait for her. Her last subject will be at 4 pm."

Me: "Whaaaaat? 4pm? Ok."

When he already went outside,

Danielle: "See? The time is just 12 pm. Then she's expecting you to wait for her until 4 pm? Then after waiting for 4 hours for her, are you sure you still dare to come with her at her house? Think about it, Jenn. And hey, we can still watch movie. Let's go."

Me: "Yeah right. Let's watch movie at my home. We both didn't bring laptop. After watching a movie, I can talk to her. I would be less anxious because my mind would probably focus to what I've watched."

So when we're already at my house watching and eating chips, I got fascinated. Especially we're being so sarcastic to what we're watching. Then someone calls from Danielle's phone (an unknown number). Unexpectedly, when Danielle answered the phone, it's Marilyn's boyfriend. So, I assumed that he's going to talk about that me and Marilyn will talk later. Mehh. I know. Stop repeating. Don't make me irritated. And I'm thinking that he's already with Marilyn. I said,