Lexxii's Story .

Part Six(:

"That man.? Well.. If you must really know that man is the one guy I have trusted with my whole heart.." I took a deep breath. "My parents have never cared about me.. I've felt hated, unwanted, worthless. My entire life I've felt this way." I took in a Deep breath and held back my tears. "Until he came. When he came I felt so happy. He was my best friend for I don't know how long. I could tell him everything. Then it came to the point where my dad," I started to cry now, there was no point in trying to stop it now. "My dad raped me. I told Jimmy that either I would kill myself or run away. One or the other. He had to choose. It was either I wouldn't ever live near that sick bastard again or live period. At that point and time in my life I was just terrified all The abuse and unwanted things would just keep happening. I couldn't take that. I had my mind set on dying; that is until one day.." I took a deep breath and wiped my tears away with the back of my hand, not like that helped much anyways tears just kept falling down my cheeks. "One day Jimmy said he loved me. With such a passion he would die without me, and I knew he meant it. I saw the way he looked at me but I always denied it. I just couldn't believe it. I just wouldn't. It was astronomical. I was so surprised when he told me, I wasn't expecting it at all. I finally realized that I loved him too. It was astonishing to me. So instead of committing suicide I ran away. No, I didn't run away with Jimmy. I was completely alone. For six weeks straight my phone didn't ring. Then one day I got a call. Guess who it was. Jimmy. That's who." I started to play with the ends of my hair nervously "he said he called to say he loved me and wanted me to come move in with him. I agreed to move in. So within three weeks I was in Jimmy's house for the first night, it was just like all the other times I slept over at his house expect I spent all day there. Anyways the first night I spent there I slept in his bed with him, just like always. That night he held me in his arms protectively all night though. I was appreciative of that. I needed that comfort. Time passed slowly and eventually I had been away from home for roughly thirty weeks. Almost a year. My parents still hadn't called. They must really hate me huh.? Then one night I got a call from my mom. I remember exactly what she said 'Lexxii, you're so stupid when I realized you were gone yesterday you scared the hell out of me. Come home right now.' yeah. I was gone THIRTY weeks and she realized the night before she called I was gone. What. The. Fuck.? I remember what I said to her 'Clarise, you're a bitch. I've been gone for THIRTY WEEKS. So shut the fuck up. I'm sick and tired of you and Robert always fucking me up. Screw you. Never and I mean it. Never. Try to talk to me again. I hate you. All you are is a fucking prostitute. I've never loved you or Robert. You're both lonely fucks. Nobody loves either of you. Thats why you got together isn't it.? Don't answer that because I already know the answer to that incompetent question. Yes, it IS why you got together and had a kid. You wanted the kid to love you and cherish you. Guess what you did to that little girl.? You made her suicidal. Don't even THINK for one second I'll forgive you or Robert for anything you've done to me. Goodbye.' that's what I said. That night I was so alone after that call I had sex with Jimmy. It was my first time and I was numb the entire time. Guess what happened after that.? I found out I was pregnant. Ha. Yeah, go ahead. I know say it. I know you're thinking it 'Damn, I'm on a date with a little whore with a baby.' Judgmental people. I hate them. Remember that. It'll be important. I had the baby and my best friend Zoe has her right now." Jimmy came back to our table and asked us what we wanted and we both just said some water. "Jimmy hadn't seen our baby girl because I live with Zoe now. When I found out I was pregnant I moved out without telling him why. Zoe told him. She thought he deserved to know.. I wanted to tell him.. I just didn't know how.. That's the story pretty much."

"Lexxii, you didn't have to tell me that.."

"You asked I explained. Just do me one tiny favor.."

"Anything."

"Don't tell anybody I have a baby. Clarise and Robert don't even know."

"I won't."

So there's that part in my story. Do you want to keep reading or just give up here.? Is my life intense enough for you.? Again I don't know. I'm not you. Jimmy was shy and quiet, he always has been. He's loving and kind. He has short brown hair that he makes into a mohawk everyday. He's one of those leather people. Punk people. He has piercings etc. He's about 6'2 and really cute. I just thought I should throw in a little description of him in there. Clarise and Robert are my parents if you haven't figured that one out yet.