The Heart Of Scars

Chapter 10

!!TRIGGER WARNING!!

Towards the end of this chapter there is a scene with attempted rape! You have been warned!

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    I look up to find a pair of shoes in front of me. Looking up some more, I find that they are connected to Julian, who then sits down next to me. I look back down and open my mouth about to say something when he interrupts.

   "Did they see it? The brand?" He looks at my awaiting my answer. Looking in his direction I slowly start nodding. He tenses up at my response and frowns. "Why did it have to be us. It's not fair," he leans forward and covers his face. Sensing his wave of emotions  I put my hand on his head and ruffle his hair. It's so soft and silky, so smooth too... I feel all my troubles melt away. I stop when his mood changes for the better.
   He turns his head towards me and smiles softly with glassy eyes. I smile back at him. I hear a pair of quick steps followed by another.

    I look behind Julian and watch as Robert and a short lady run towards us. Julian watched as well and got up when they got closer. I stand up after him and he walks to the short lady. She embraces him in a tight hug  she releases him and interrogates him to find out what happened. I feel someone next to me rubbing my back worriedly. I look at Robert and smile nervously, not wanting to get in trouble.

    "Are you okay?" He asks me anticipation filling his voice. 

   "Yeah, I'm fine just a few scratches," I reply.

    I shift on my feet as he gets upset at my response and his eyes grow angry, "Scratches? These are not scratches! These are full on injuries! Just look at your nose it's all cut and beaten up and so is the rest of your face!..." He speaks faster and a bit louder than before. I look to floor quietly as embarrassment hits me. "Look, Jasper... I'm not trying to be mean, but you gotta look after yourself better in the future and I don't want to see you hurt like this." he sighs as he leads me towards the clinic. Julian and the lady approach us causing us to have to stop.
    The young lady steps forward and introduces herself to us, "Hello, I'm Faye, Julian's guardian," she motions to him, "I wanted to thank you for helping him, he would have been badly hurt if you hadn't stepped in and fought for him."

    I smile and reply,"It's fine. I'm just glad that Julian is okay, he is a wonderful boy and I'm happy he has someone like you to take care of him. Besides I didn't really win the fight otherwise I would have been less beaten up," I laugh slightly, rubbing the back of my neck.

    She smiles slightly and replies, "What are your names?" she looks from me to Robert. 

    I look at Robert waiting for him to answer her. "I'm Robert, and I'm Jasper's guardian," I wave awkwardly when he says my name. she nods and steps out of the way and walks towards the clinic door with Robert, me and Julian following after them.
    We walk in and all eyes fly towards us. I slink back making myself seem smaller. Some of the eyes look back to what they were doing, while the others glare at me. I stand closer to Robert making sure no one noticed. I watch as Gunji and Connor glare at me. I shiver in fear.

    Around half an hour later and Gunji, Connor, Antonio, and I get our suspension dates for fighting. We leave slowly with each of our parents. Robert and I finally get home and I head straight to the bathroom to wash up.
    I step up to the bathtub and turn it on while thinking about my day. It was a fun day until the end of it. If only this didn't happen.....What if I wasn't born, would my whole life be given to someone else? would they suffer the same way I suffer now? I watch the water pool into a puddle and fill up the tub. I unclothe myself and look in the mirror scanning over my body full of scars. I frown deeply and look away. I make sure I locked the door then go and shut off the water flow when it reaches where I want it. I step in and sit down letting the warm water wrap my body in its blanket.
     I look down at the water. What if I ended it now? No, I can't... that would  make everyone who is close to me sad.....right? No, they probably want me to be gone. They're probably going to forget about me after I do die......I don't want to be forgotten. My eyes start watering as I keep thinking of things to bring down my spirit.
    I relax my body some more, and lean my back against the edge of the tub. Sighing heavily, I close my eyes.

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    I wobble as I lean against the wall trying to get away. Gunji grabs me, and stops me from running off. Pushing me against the lockers, he holds my neck, tight enough to give me trouble breathing, in his hands and he nears his face to mine.
   Shocked, I grab at his hands, trying to unwrap them from my neck. Seeing that I can't remove his hands, I look away to the side and watch as the others are standing there watching and laughing. Everything feels like it's in slow motion, I hate it! He moves his leg between both of mine and and licks my neck causing my legs to buckle from under me causing me to tumble forward. When he keeps me from falling, I push away from him and blush in embarrassment since the others were watching.
    Tears start flowing out of my eyes. I break out into sobs as Gunji's hand explores my chest. With all my strength I push him away only for him to pull his fist back and punch my face while he and the others laugh wildly. Please make it stop! No! Stop it! My hands are bound by an unknown force causing me to not be able to fight back and keep my dignity as a guy. Gunji licks my jaw all the way to my neck where he then bites down and sucks leaving a mark.

    "You're mine now," he snarls out while laughing maniacally.