The Heart Of Scars

Chapter 11

    "You're mine now," I kept hearing him say that over and over, again and again. It was like a broken record player stuck on repeat.

    Knock. Knock.

     I open my eyes and gasp for air when I hear loud knocks coming from the bathroom door. Breathing heavily I grip the tub and get out of it slowly feeling dizzy from the lack of oxygen. Looking towards the water I realized that my mouth and nose had been beneath the surface causing me to not be able to breathe.

    Knock. Knock. Knock.

    I look over to the door and call out,"Y-Yeah?"

    "Are you okay in there? You were in there for a while, and you were quiet. I was starting wonder if something happened to you," Robert asks me.

    "Nothing happened, I'm just tired," It wasn't a complete lie.

    "Okay, can you get out now and come eat dinner when you're done."

    "I'll come out, but I'm not hungry. I just wanna go to sleep," I reply to him.

    "...Okay. You can go to sleep when you come out, but first let me help patch you up. It must be hard doing it yourself," He suggests.

    "No... No it's fine I can do it. I've done this many times before," I reply hopeful he won't push on with it.

    "Fine... Goodnight, see ya tomorrow," he leaves.Sighing I grab my towel and start drying off the rest of my body. I slip on my night clothes and head to the door.

    I grab the doorknob and turn it, and walk into the living room. Where does he keep his first aid kit? I walk towards where all the sounds are coming from. Finding Robert, I open my mouth about to ask him where the first aid kit was, when he hands me it.

    "Thanks," I smile slightly at him.

    "No problem."

    I walk to my room and sit at my desk, taking out the contents of the white box. I sort through the stuff and put the things I don't need back into the box. I apply them and then put everything back to how it was. I give the kit back to Robert and walk back to my room. I shut off the lights and stumble blindly to my bed, knocking into my chair. I get under the covers and lay my head on my pillow. I close my eyes not wanting to sleep in fear of having the dream that I had earlier. I just want to get this over with.

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    "Where you are going?" I look behind me to find a young Julian playing with the bottom of his shirt nervously.

   "To go see Lacey," I smile once I say her name.

   "But what if she isn't there?" 

    "She will be. I know she will."

    "What if you get caught? It's nighttime and we're not allowed out our rooms."

    "I won't get caught. Plus if I do Elli likes me and he's the boss."

    "If you say so... Don't say I didn't warn you..." He shuffles back to our bed. I turn away from him and walk quietly to the door opening it easily. Hmmm...I guess they didn't put a block in front of our door. Slipping through the gap I look down both ends of the hallway to spot any guards.

    Not seeing any guards I quickly and quietly I dash down the hallway towards the window. Seeing that it's slightly ajar I mentally celebrate. Tiptoeing, I reach my hand out the window and snap my fingers twice. I hear rustling and pull my hand out of the window. I watch patiently and wait for Lacey to come through. I sit down finding no need to stand anymore when I see the black hair on her head peek through the window.
    She crawls through it and lands on all fours. She's so adorable! I scoop her up and play with her whiskers. Such a good kitty. I smile when she meows softly at me and gives me a headbutt. I chuckle softly. I pet her long enough for her to fall asleep in my arms. She purrs like a motor the whole time.
    Leaning up against the wall I dig into my pocket, and pull out some of my scraps that I wrapped in a napkin. I unwrap it and she awakes from the smell. I pick up the piece of chicken and give it to her. 

    "Sorry there's so little, It's most of my ration. It was hard to sneak them out," I whisper to her. I put them on the floor causing her to get up and start eating. I watch as she scarfs it down. Once she finishes I grab the napkin and put it back in my pocket. I pick her up and I touch noses with her. "I gotta go Lacey, I'll see you tomorrow, I think.... maybe... I won't know until it's close to the time I can leave," I frown as I think about leaving her.
    I get up and make sure I left nothing behind and pick Lacey up earning a mew from her. I rub then kiss her head before I put her on the windowsill. She jumps out and I hear rustling telling me that she left. Sighing I look around again and deem the area worthy to leave. I look around hearing footsteps and dash to the room. Oh no! I forgot that the night patrol is going to be more active tonight.

    I'm halfway to the room when I fall landing on my left knee."Ugh!" I grunt in pain as quietly as I can. I look behind me to find guards with flashlights coming down the hall. They stopped once they heard me. I could hear one of them asking if the others heard it too. Apparently he was the only one who heard it. I get back up and sprint back down the hallway towards the room again.

    I reach the room out of breathe and I enter still making sure to be quite. I look over to the bed and find Julian curled up asleep, trying to gain more warmth. Poor thing I probably shouldn't have left him here all alone. I slip into the bed next to him and pull him closer to me to give him extra warmth. I close my eyes hoping for a good night's rest.