The Arranged Love //PM Zion

Chapter 18 - Uncovering Truths

*Jamie's Pov*

This has got to be the worse Monday in the history of Mondays.

I finally got home after a terrible day at school and I was not in the mood for anymore surprises.

Imagine my displeasure when this happened.

"Jamie come downstairs. The Kuwonus are here for dinner." My dad yelled from downstairs.

Just when I thought this day couldn't get any worse.

"Not hungry. Can I take a nap instead? " I yelled back.

No reply.

"I'll take that as yes." I said under my breath while jumping back on my bed.

A few minutes later there was a knock on my door.

My dad never knocks.

"Go away Zion, not in the mood for you. I don't think I'll ever be."

"Ouch. " He said through the door.

I could hear the humor and sarcasm in his voice. I kinda missed that.

"Can I come in? " His voiced turned small. He probably remembered we aren't on good terms.

"I'm not sure that's the best idea."

"Why? Can't you control yourself around me?" He laughed. "Or are you scared I'm the one who can't control myself? " His voice turned serious. He sounded sad maybe even hurt.

Nothing compared to how I felt when I learned the truth. How I still feel.

But am I scared of him though?

I found myself opening the door before I could answer the question.

"Hey." He said and for a second he flashed me his bright smile before returning to a straight face. I could tell he was trying not to give off any emotions.

"Hey. What do you want?" I replied coldly.

"Well your dad sent me to come get you but truth be told, I don't wanna sit through another awkward dinner either. "

"It's only awkward because of you. "

"Because of me? " He looked confused.

"Don't you get it? You ruined everything we had with your secrets." I said angrily.

"My secrets ruined everything we had?"

"Yes and stop repeating everything that I say." I said irritated.

"I'm sorry I'm just trying to get this straight. If I had been upfront about everything that happened with Jessica from the beginning, we would still be together?"

Is he being serious?

I haven't even thought about it that way.

"Right, that's what I thought." He said when I didn't say anything.

"Zion..." I have no idea what else to say.

"So my secret isn't what ruined us. It's what I did a year before I met you. Something I can't even remember doing." He said clearly hurting.

"You think that gives you a pass? Just because you can't remember doing it doesn't make it okay." I said without being able to look him in the eye.

"Are you afraid?" He asked, his voice barely above a whisper.

"Afraid of what Zion?" I asked already knowing the answer.

"Are you afraid of me? Afraid I'll hurt you?" He asked looking at me dead straight in the eyes.

"You know I would never hurt you right? Please say you know that. "

I do know that. Deep down I do know he would never do anything to harm me. But I can't tell him that because it doesn't change anything and I don't wanna give him false hope.

"No I don't. I don't know what you'll do because I don't even know you." I couldn't dare look him in the eye as I said this. I tried to walk past him to get downstairs but he grabbed my hand before I could go anywhere.

"Look me in the eye and say that you don't know who I am. Say that you feel absolutely nothing for me." He said sounding really desperate.

"We've already been through this."

"I know but this time I'll listen. This time I'll leave you alone."

Why put yourself through this again? Why put me through this? It was so hard to say it to him the first time around. I can't do it again.

I have to stop lying to him but more importantly, I have to stop lying to myself.

"Please let me go." I begged.

"Not until you say it."

I looked at the grip he had on my hand. There was no way he was gonna let go if I forced him.

Funny how this is the only situation where I believe the truth will set you free.

"I can't say it."

"Why not?" He asked with a glimmer of hope in his eyes.

"I can't say it because we both know it's not true."

"What is the truth then?"

Please don't make me say it.

"You know the truth.''

"I wanna hear it...please."

"You wanna know the truth so bad? The truth is despite everything I'm still in love with you."

There, I admitted it.

"In love?" He asked thinking he clearly was mistaken.

"Yes in love. But that doesn't mean I can forgive you and I still have feelings for Jesse but you made sure I can't forgive him either."

He finally let go of my hand.

"Jamie I... "

"Don't. Please don't say anything. It won't change a thing."

He seemed to be in some sort of trance so I took it as my chance to get the hell away from him before any of us did or said something we couldn't come back from.

Honestly, I was terrified that if I stood there with him a second longer that all would be forgiven and I can't let that happen.

*Jesse's Pov*

Where the hell is Jessica? She wasn't in her room and she wasn't downstairs either. I really needed to talk to her about this whole secret siblings thing.

I headed to the bathroom to look for when I heard her voice, it sounded like she was on the phone.

"What do you mean why are we still dating? We just are."

Who is she talking to and who is she talking about?

"No, of course not. That was just an insurance policy. To make sure he stays with me. "

Insurance policy? She has to be talking about Zion.

"Do you really think I would let that happen? I did it because I had a feeling he would break up with me. He just thinks he forced me, he can't remember a thing. You should have seen his face when I told him what he did or what he thinks he did. I'm such a great actress."

No way.

This can't be happening.

Jessica staged the whole thing.

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