(a/n trigger warning: involves cutting/self harm)
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Mike's POV
They're saying I'm whipped... am I? Nah. I just lov-like her I just like her. Do I love her? Ugh idk.
El's POV
I think I love mike. I'm not quite sure what that means but Nancy always says it to Jonathan.. I mean what.. damn she said it needed to be a secret
Eleven shut up this is your subconscious you are talking to yourself in your mind
Oh I forgot
Of course you forgot..your stupid.
That's not true
Don't lie you know it's true you're just a screw up like your mother and your really only good for your mind
Also not true
Well then why do think you have friends
Because I am nice
No your a weirdo according to Lucas and to Dustin only for you powers as I well you quote,"If we knew you had powers we never would have upset you" what does that sound like to you? Huh?
You know what.. your right they never liked me
Of course I'm right.. I'm always right
Mike's POV
I'm so tired right now.. it's 3am but I'm at the point where I'm so overly tired I feel like I'm not tired but I know I am you know? Whatever I am going I just try to get some rest
The Next Day...
(a/n in the following paragraph el's subconscious will be in bold italic as opposed to regular italic as el just thinking will just be in normal italic thanks enjoy!)
El's POV
i woke up and looked at the clock. "It's only 8?ughh..." I kinda loud whispered. To get up or not to get up?
Gimme a break already just get you fat ass up for once and take a jog or something seriously
Fine
So I got dressed and went outside i ran to Murkwood and back three times and got back around 10 o'clock. I got back and decided to take a shower but first to see if mike was awake. When I got to his door I knocked... no answer so I opened the door and he was sleeping still
Such a lazy boy
Shut up
Fine
Mike's POV
I do t know what it is but El has been acting very distant lately I don't know what going on. I think I am going to go check in her.
El's POV
I know I have been acting really weird lately and maybe that is the cause of this but I feel like mike doesn't like me anymore. I mean I don't want that thought in my head but it is probably true.
Maybe a shower will help
Of course a shower would help you smell like ass (a/n i know I shouldn't be laughing rn but I am)
Yeah your right...
I took a towel and my clothes and went into the bathroom to take a shower
You're so ugly
I know
And fat
I know
And gross
I know
And weird
I know
You should just kill yourself already
I know
I shook my head and stepped into the shower letting the warm water hit my cold skin, letting the steam practically take over my body.
Ew I need the shave
No shit
I pulled out the razor and shaving cream
"Ow fuck!" I exclaimed as a cut myself on accident
Oh come on you know that burning sensation pleased you a little bit maybe if you do it on you arms you will die and the boys will feel free
Your right but I do t think I should
No no yes bitch you should your just a slut anyways
No I'm not
Yeah you are
No
What ever
I sat there pondering weather to do it or not. To cut my self or to not, to cut my self or to not. After a good 15 minutes of repeating that question over and over again I said aloud
"Fuck it"
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Don't you just love cliffhangers? I know I do ;)
Until Next Time...
Stay Strange💕
~Allie📻
