(a/n: may be more self harm/ talking about it. If this make you uncomfortable than I suggest you skip this chapter, although the rest of the story might not make much sense I do not know any way want you guys to feel uncomfortable<3)
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El's POV
I woke up this morning to the loud sounds of sobs. I went back to bed thinking it was just Holly.
That was until, I heard the sounds of beloved, but bound to be broken, Mike.
I rose out of bed letting my curiosity get the best of my as I allow my feet, formally warmed with blankets, hit the cold floors that sent shivers down my spine. My mind unwillingly told my feet to walk to Mike's room, so I obeyed.
The cries, they got louder and louder every step closer I took to his room.
Poor mike
Yeah I know right
Aww we are actually agreeing on something
Well we won't be if you don't do it again tonight
Seriously?
You heard me
Ugh fine.. but I actually thought you so
Whatever
I opened my door to be met with a sleeping Mike. Although he looked a bit distraught, hence the tears pouring out like Niagara Falls, he still somehow looked cute.
Snap out of it..
I quietly thought to myself. I knocked some sense into me and shook him awake
Only to be met with a look of confusion for 0.2 seconds with I bit of realization and a giant...hug?
"EL!"
"Mike?" I said as more of a question
"Oh my god, El!"
"Mike what happened?"
"I had a nightmare"
nightmare? I will just ask him later
"What? What was it about?"
"You."
"Me?"
"You went missing and I couldn't find you"
"Well, Mike I am right here" I said trying to sound as reassuring as possible
"I know! I know y-your right h-here" he said in between sobs
"and guess what?"
"What?"
I'm never leaving" I said as I pulled him into a hug.
He sobbed into my shoulder soaking my pajama top. But at that point I didn't care. I knew it was time I tell him.
"Hey, hey mike" I said gently as I practically pulled him off my shoulder so we were face to face.
Looking at me with pleading, tear stained eyes
"I-I-I love y-you" I said eyes very hopeful
"El, I love you too" he said pulling me into an even for giant hug than I had pulled him into before.
Time Skip to That Evening
(Still El's POV)
It has been quite a few hours since Mike and I had that encounter. Hadn't spoken since.
"DINNER!" Ms.Wheeler had called
I came out of my room only to be met with I pair of chocolate brown eyes and flaming red cheeks probably identical to mine.
"Hey" he said
"Hey" I said
As we walked down the stairs we couldn't help but practically run to the table, well at least I couldn't, as I hadn't eaten all day.
I was met with three glimmering eyes paired with bright smiles of pure happiness at the table with a chuckle coming from behind me.
Though I couldn't help but feel sad.
I tried my best to look happy as everyone seemed to not know the difference.
But Mike, as he seemed to look right through the happiness, and right to the sad.
Although he choose to leave it be.
After I finished dinner I went upstairs and grabbed my things for the shower.
As I entered the bathroom I couldn't help but crave that sensation of the cold blade hitting my skin.
I eagerly turned on the shower and striped out of my clothes and stepped in, once again letting the warm rain like droplets consume my body and leave my on that's oh so loved relaxed state.
Taking the blade to my skin wincing for a split second before letting out a relieved sigh.
A few more I did covering more of my wrists with cuts and and reopening old ones from the night prior here and there, rinsing off the blood with the warm water not long after.
Time Skip to Her Room After the Shower
(a/n note that this takes place in 2017 so some stuff will be modern day)
I got changed into a pair of Soffe shorts and my Grey's Anatomy 'its a beautiful day to save lives' sweatshirt and went into Mike's room. I figured we had to clear things up.
"Hey" I said
"H-hey el"
"Can we talk for a sec?"
"Yeah of course what's up?"
"So about the I love you thing.."
"Oh" he said nervously
"Well can we act normal about it? Like talk like we used to?"
"Yes of course I was thinking the same thing!"
"Okay good, well I should probably be heading to be-"
"Hey wait um el?" interrupting me as I was half way out the door
"Yes mike?"
"You seem to be acting sad, or distant lately. Is everything, ya know, okay?"
"Uh what yeah?" I said, well more asked
"Whatever you say, even though I know you know I am seeing right through you right now"
I remained silent
"Just- if you need to talk about it, when your ready of course, I am always here for you all ears"
I nodded
"Goodnight Mike" I said sweetly and quietly
"Goodnight El" he responded with the same tone of voice
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Hey Strangers!
I am sorry I didn't get to post a new chapter a few nights ago so here is one now! I am going to try my best to update tomorrow if not the following day/night! Also next chapter of going to be a time skip and may involve mileven dramaaa;)
Hope you like it and anything I should know or any ideas you have please feel free to comment them below<3
Until Next Time...
Stay Strange💕
~xoxo Allie📻
