Roslyn's Story

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Hello! I am our admin for LGBT. I am pansexual and non binary. If you don't know what either of those terms mean, I am more than happy to explain. Pansexual means sexually attracted to all genders. This automatically means that you know there are more than two genders. It doesn't, however, mean that you cannot have preferences. For example, you can be a pansexual lesbian or something. Non binary is an umbrella term for people who don't identify as male or female. 


My story is certianaly not an interesting one, but I guess read on if you want. I also suck at spelling, just as a warning, so if you catch something, feel free to tell me. 


I'm not exactly sure what we remember what we were talking about, but slightly more than a year ago, a friend of mine and I were talking about LGBT. At the time, she was more informed than me about the subject because she actually identified in the community. I did not. I thought that I was cis and straight. I'd only had boyfriends and I loved dresses and skirts. But they introduced the term pansexual to me. After looking up what it meant (because they were insistent that I look it up myself because they're just stubborn). I don't know why, but I've identified as that ever since. And lately I've been having pulls to girls, so I guess it makes sense now? 

A few months ago, I accidentally came out to both of my sisters seperatly. I came out to my youngest sister while we were walking home some Wednesday from school. After explaining what it meant, she said that she identified as that too. With the other one, we were talking about LGBT or something at the table and it just kinda slipped. She glared at me and said "whatever." I felt slightly invalidated after that, but I quickly got over it. 


A few days ago, that sister that I came out to last outed me as pansexual. She then continued to say that we should drop every single term that is not trans, straight, bi, gay, or lesbian. I wanted to cry. My mom didn't really react (which is better than a negative reaction) and my step dad said something about us young people making up new terms.  So... uh yeah. That's my pansexual story.


I actually came out as gender queer to myself this summer. I asked my two closest friends (the one who introduced me to pansexual and another one) to call me by what I figured out was my prefered name (Roslyn, the name that I've been using as my pen name, but it is my name). Not too long ago actually saying to myself "ok, you're non binary. You can like to wear dresses on occasion and still be non binary. It is how you feel that counts, not the clothes you wear." And yeah. I haven't told my friends that I have officially picked a term that I'm happy with, but I'm sure they'll figure it out soon. If not, I'll do it later. I mean, they accepted to call me by my name, so it won't be too hard. Plus one of them is fluid anyway. 

I don't experience disphoria or anything, I just don't feel like a female quite. But I don't feel like a male at all. So... non binary. Not that hard. 


I want to hear your stories or interview you if you don't know where to start. I'm also ok with letting you stay anonymous. You can leave a comment, PM me on this account, PM me on my main (Roslyn_Robinson), or send an email to notmychoice2017(At sign)gmail.com.

**UPDATE** I have picked a different term to describe my gender, which is demigirl. That means I don't feel like a girl all the time, but still do every once in a while. I think it still fits in with the non binary umbrella term since I'm not trans or cis, but I'm not sure. Also, after having my friends calling me Roslyn for a few days, I decided that I like my real name better and Roslyn is better as a pen name. I've grown more confertable with my name since. 

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