The bad boy wants to protect me?

We arrived back at the house where Ladan would tell me about his background. He didn't want to do it at the carnival as 'there were too many ears listening in'. His words not mine. 

I couldn't help but wonder what it was on the walk home. How bad could it be right? He doesn't look dangerous. Except for that time at the club. But thats just because he was mad right? Anyone would do the same.

But then what about all them men? The two at the club who looked like they let him command them. Then the ones at the carnival. Maybe it was bad, it has to be something illegal, maybe he's robbed some stuff or something? Ughh he needs to tell me soon otherwise i'm going to die of stress!

I walked through to the living room and sat down on the sofa while Ladan went to make us hot chocolate so we would be 'comfortable'. He's clearly just trying to waste time so he can think through things. Will he tell me the truth?

Before i could think about it any further. Ladan walked in with the drinks, he handed one to me then sat next to me. He wasn't his normal self i could tell that straight away. He had a hard face, like he didn't want to show any emotion and it was working, i didn't have a clue what he was thinking. I'd never really noticed until now how rough he did look. 

His hair was scruffy and tousled but he managed to rock it. He had stubble on his face that gave him that rough mysterious look and then his body. He was huge. His arms were bulging out of his shirt and you could see his 8 pack through his shirt. You could see the muscles in his legs outlined by his jeans. All in all he had that hot gangster look going on.

"you done checking me out yet Ad?" He asked.

"Oh -uh, i wasn't checking you out! God, no way. Just get on with it Ladan!" I said awkwardly. 

"Okay so i didn't have a great start to life. My mum was shot in a hit and run when i was 7 and my dad was the leader of the biggest gang in the state. So i grew up around guns and beatings, drugs and knives."

I gasped at that. 

"I know it wasn't a great childhood but you know i got through it. So the gang, it erm sells drugs and deals weaponds so it's pretty dangerous stuff. It also has rivalry gangs aswell since its the biggest and most feared so we get into lots of fights most of the time and it's pretty hardcore stufff."

"What do you mean 'we?'" i asked skeptically. He couldn't seriously be involved in all this shit could he?

"3 years ago my dad kidnapped. We spent 3 months looking for him until one morning his head was found on our doorstep. Luckily it's where most of the gang members live so i wasn't the one to find it but yea. It was one of our rivalry gangs. In the gang world the leaders position is passed on through sons. Since i have no other brothers the position was passed onto me. I didn't want it atall. I didn't care if it was what my dad wanted, it was his and the wholes gangs fault my mother lost her life and i didn't want to be involved with that. But i realised it wasn't just about me or my dad. The gang has over 300 men who have pledged their life to the gang and have given up wives and children for this gang and who was i to just rip it away from them? The gang is all they had and i didn't want them to have given up so much just for one single guy to rip it out from under their feet. So i took on the role of gang leader and i'm good at it. There has been no deaths in my gang since i took over and i'm proud of that." He said.

I was frozen. I wasn't sure what to say. I mean what is there to say to that? He's a dangerous man, a gang leader for gods sake but i wasn't scared of him. I was confused as to why i wasn't scared. This waas the gang leader of one of the most high ranked gangs in the state but i don't feel like running. I felt like hugging and comforting Ladan because of what he has had to go through at such a young age. 

Ladan was tense with a hard look on his face. His hands were both in fists like he was preparing himself for me to run out or something. 

I stood up put my now cold hot chocolate on the floor and went and  sat down on his lap, i put my arms around his neck and squeezed him close to me. I felt his body go rigid and could hear him breathing heavily into the crook of my neck. He wasn't moving or bothering to put his arms around me which made me feel kind of awkward.

I was about to stand up again when he buried his face into my neck and put his arms around my waist. 

I slowly brought my head up to look at him. He looked up at me and i couldn't help the gasp that left my mouth. He was so beautiful i felt my heart rate pick up at how much i felt for him at that moment. To feel so close to him was amazing. 

"Why do you live here, aren't gangs really rich?" I asked.

"Yeah, we're loaded. We used to use this house to deal weaponds but when i saw you, i don't know, i was just pulled to you, i felt something and i just decided to live here with you. I like it better anyway." He said with a smile. 

I don't know what happened next. Or who kissed who, all i knew is that we were kissing and it was hot.