The bad boy wants to protect me?

I stared at Ladan shocked, i couldn't take this all in, they hadn't spoken for a long term and ended on bad terms, if Jace is... dead this would kill Ladan too. He would always feel guilty, this is obviously something to do with the gang and i know Ladan would blame himself. 

I don't think it would be Ladan's fault though, with or without Ladan, Jace would be involved with the gang in some way, his dad was the gang leader for gods sake, he would always be connected to the gang.

I couldn't get the image out of my head though, Ladan and his scary gang leader dad beating up his little brother. I couldn't imagine what that poor kid was going through. I was seeing Ladan in a different light right now.

Before me sat a man crying over the fact he doesn't know what's happened to his little brother, a man who i would've most likely trusted with my life. I could've never imagined him doing these horrible, disgusting things. It made bile rise in my throat, tears sting at my eyes. 

I was no naive, even after Ladan told me he was a freaking gang leader for christ sakes i still thought of him as a great guy, someone who could be loved and trusted, and i did, i trusted him. The first person i've ever trusted and this is what i get, and i beleive i could've easily fallen for Ladan, if i haven't already.

"Ads, what's wrong?" Ladan asked and i hit the roof. What was wrong? What was wrong? You've just told me you're a homophobic bully who isn't afraid to join in with other people and beat up your own brother! How the hell can he expect me to be okay with that?

Ofcourse i didn't say that to him, i wanted to, i wanted to so bad. But i know he's hurting right now, i know he's blaming himself and i know my opinion about him matters to him and i can't put him down anymore. It would just be cruel. So i went for the calmer approach.

"you Ladan, i just can't do this right now. I just need to be alone for a while. I'll see you later." And with a swift kiss to his cheek i walked out the front door.

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Sorrry these aren't long chapters, but i'm trying to do it bit by bit so i can't things up quicker. This book has over 5000 reads now and over 80 votes which is prettty crazyyyyy! Keep voting and commenting please :)

Also, i was thinking about doing a chapter in Ladans POV what dyou guys think??