Why can't I feel /// Jacob Sartorius

Chapter 1

Elieghanna Havit

Age: 13

Jacob Sartorius
Age: 14

Mia Havit
Age: 14

_Chapter 1_

Have you ever felt like that ugly duckling out of the rest of the beautiful swans well that's how I feel when I comes to expressing my emotions. I mean I only feel a certain way towards some people but I've never felt love honestly I don't even know what it is. My sister Mia says it's the best feeling in the world but how can I totally be sure about that till I've felt it myself I mean I try to dm boys but their all the same. "Cool" "k" "ok" "lol" "oh" I mean come on are those the only words in your vocabulary 🙄. I mean my sister thinks I'm weird cause she says that's "just how boys are" yeah my ass. I only have one friend that's a boy and he's different but I'd never date him. His name is Weston Koury and he's a bit to crazy for my type. "Elli come on mom is making you come with me to meet Jacob Sartorius" Mia shouted up to me. I walked down and slipped my shoes on. "Be nice I know that's a challenge for you" she said annoyed. I slowly nodded. We started walking down the street to where the venu was. God just put a bullet through my head already. I mean it's not that I don't like Jacob it's just she'll never really talk to him.

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When she was next she was screaming. She took pictures with him and left and now it's time for me to see him. I slowly walked towards him and he hugged me he was warm and he made me feel safe. "You smell good" I said making him laugh. He kissed the corner of my mouth touching my lip a little. I felt electricity run through me. We took some pictures.

(Comment if you follow @perfectorius on ig she's so beautiful)
(Pretend it's Ellie not Bella)
When we were done he held onto my phone for a minute I didn't know what he was doing but when he gave me my phone back and put his thumb on my lips and kissed me most of his lips touched mine but I couldn't let people know that. I really just wanted to rip his thumb away and kiss him for real. That's how the sparks were. "I put my number in your phone so call me" he smiled letting go. I ran my bottom lip through my teeth and nodded before walking away.

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Mia was fan girling over how cute she thought me and Jacob were. "We were pretty cute weren't we" I said blushing. I remembered what he told me and I ripped out my phone.

Me- hey Jacob it's me Elieghanna the girl you gave your number to
Jacob☺️💜- hey it was so nice to meet you today Elieghanna
Me- oh please just call me E or Ellie
Jacob☺️💜- ok Ellie, by the way look on Instagram if you have one.
Me- ok...

I looked on Instagram and there it was the picture of me and Jacob "stage kissing" they even tagged me. I looked at my account and I had 13.54k followers.

Me- omg Jacob I have so many followers
Jacob☺️💜- I wish it wasn't a stage kiss tho
Me- you mean you want to kiss me?
Jacob☺️💜- yeah I guess
Me- too bad honey boo boo this chick don't believe in love.
Jacob☺️💜- why not if you don't mind me asking
Me- it's not some deep personal scarring ex boyfriend like in movies honestly how can you believe in something you've never seen or felt.
Jacob☺️💜- wow that's deep
Me- pffttt yeah ok 😂
Jacob☺️💜- it is you shared something with me
Me- you know I felt something I never have before today when I was with you
Jacob☺️💜- and what is that
Me- hope
Jacob☺️💜-hope?
Me- hope that I will believe in love hope that I will confide in someone one day
Jacob☺️💜- woah I didn't think I could make you feel that
Me- it was like electricity or like a fire in my heart and I never wanted you to let go I wanted you to move your thumb and not care anymore
Jacob☺️💜- I would've If I could've
Me- don't make me fall for you Jacob Sartorius
Jacob☺️💜- I thought you didn't believe in love
Me- don't give me hope
Read: 7:45 pm