Why can't I feel /// Jacob Sartorius

chapter 19

Hi I'm Caitlin aka noodlyjacob and I'm helping write this. K bye....

Then and there I knew I had to do something. Everybody always lied to me and said they loved me but in reality nobody loves me at all.

I just need to find a rope.

I repeated that in my mind as I ran through the house looking for something to hang myself with. Eventually I went up to my room again and started rummaging through drawers I didn't find anything. I threw myself on the ground and started crying.

Why couldn't I just be like everybody else.

PERFECT

I just wanted Jacob right now but I knew I couldn't run back to him after he hurt me. Nothing was my fault if he was the one that cheated on me.

I layed down on my bed, still crying but I felt relaxed. Just laying there not thinking about anything. I closed my eyes and then heard my notification sound go off.

I opened my eyes with a confused look on my face.

I looked at my phone and it was a message from Jacob I ignored it but then my phone started ringing. Jacob was calling me. Given the fact that he wouldn't leave me alone I answered it.