broadway multifandom oneshots

deh: treebros/ kleinsen

Warning: angst.
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Evan's pov

"Hey connor... h-how've you been...?" I ask, my throat tight and tears forming as I sit in the grass and lean on the stone with my boyfriend's name engraved in it. "I've been doing well... my therapist has me see a grief counselor once a week now..." I sniffle. "You'd like her... she cracks a lot of sarcastic jokes to make me feel better... just like you do..." I start tracing the shape of a heart in the grass. "Mom wanted me to tell you hi... a-and that she misses you... she sets a place at our table for you every Saturday... she gets really sad when you d-dont show up like you used to..." I wipe my eyes and take a deep, shaky breath as sobs emit from me. "I-i love you so m-m-much connor..." I bawl. I bury my face in my hands. "I-im sorry.... I swore I wouldn't cry this t-time!" I cry out as I stare up at the sky. Connor had asked in his suicide note to be buried in the orchard. So now, amidst the open field, sits his lone tombstone. I snuggle tightly into the hoodie he left behind for me. It still smells of him, which breaks my heart more. The knowledge that someday soon I will lose that Scent forever is almost unbearable. I curl up In the patch of grass and bawl against the ground that would be right above Connor's chest.

Jared's pov

I park my car and silently walk out into the orchard. I see Evan's figure curled up on Connor's grave. When connor died, he left us all a note. Mine was short and to the point.

"I never fucking liked you,  but please show Evan how to love again. Youre the only one I trust not to break his heart any more than I did"

That's all it said. But I do respect Connor's last wishes. I walk up to the grave and gently pick up Evan. He mourned himself to sleep again. I glance at the grave and feel myself tear up.
"You weren't a bad guy, Murphy." I sigh and walk evan to my car. I slide his snoring figure into the passenger seat and climb into the driver's seat.

Mid-way home evan opens his baby blue eyes. "Jared?" He whimpers.
"It's okay, ev. I'm taking you home. " I promise him.
"A-actually... can I spend the night with you? " He asks.
"Of course. I'll have mom call Heidi. " I nod.
"Just call her mom... she prefers it." Evan sniffles.
"Ev, I know you're heart broken... hell, its only been a month, but im starting to worry about you. A lot." I sigh. "Youre losing weight and I havent seen you smile since it happened. I never thought id say this,  but I miss your random tree facts..." I admit.
"Y-you do?" He looks up at me. I glance at him before looking back at the road.
"Yeah, I do." I sigh as we pull up at my house. We walk up to my room and he sits on my bed. "Let's try this. Instead of only focusing on losing connor, lets try ot remember the good times with him."
"I...I remember the t-time that I first had him over to my house... m-mom was scared he'd be a bad influence on me, but by the end of the night she felt like she had gained another son..." evan sniffles. "He really was a good guy... he was protective, a-and loving..."
"I know he was, ev..." I sigh and sit next to him. I hug him tightly and he hugs back, crying into my shoulder. "Evan, I haven't told you what Connor told me to do in my note yet, have I?" I ask. he shakes his head no. "He told me to teach you to love again... I dont necessarily know how to do that, but I want to learn. So if you bear with me, I know I can help you mend your broken heart. No, you'll never get over connor, I know that. I dont want you to. He was a great guy. Just dont shut your heart out to everyone else, okay?" I whisper. My words make him tear up and he wipes his eyes, but nods.
" o-okay..." he nods.

6 months later♡

Evan's pov

I wake up snuggled up to Jared, who is snoring loudly beside me. I sigh and smile slightly as I sit up. Im clad in one of Connor's old band t-shirts and I look down at it. Jared doesn't mind me wearing and keeping stuff of Connor's.  I think he likes it because I always feel happier when I'm in them.

Jared stirs from his sleep next to me and reaches for his glasses. He puts them on and smiles at me.
"Morning sweet heart." He hums.
"Morning." I grin, curling up to him he wraps an arm around my waist and I nuzzle into his chest. He presses his lips to my forehead.
"How'd you sleep? " he asks.
"Really well. I dreamt about Connor. He was alive, and he saw you and me and he smiled at us and told us to be happy together. That we deserve one another." I recall the dream to him.
"I love you, Jared." I smile.
"I love you too, evan. " He hugs me tighter and I giggle. Its nice to finally feel alright again. Yes, I still love connor. I always will. Connor knows that. Jared knows it too. But they both also know I have to carry on, even without him. And I love Jared too. Connor apparently could see that way before i could.