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17. Heart to heart.

Niall's POV.

It feels like weeks have gone by since our little encounter infront of the bridal shop but it's only 4 days to be exactly.

I can't help it. I already love Caitlyn but there's something with Barbara that I can't explain. I know she broke me but I don't know. Seeing her again was the best and worst thing happened to me. I mean, I saw her again. I miss her presence. I miss the girl I used to love. But my mind always remind me that "She left you, she hurt you, she broke you. Stop it Niall, stop." I sighed. My brain is always right but my heart is dumb as fuck.

I was shocked that I saw her again at the bridal shop with Brandon. Her fiancé. But seriously, I'm not shocked when Brandon introduced himself as Barbara's soon to be husband. I mean, why would I? Brandon was her ex-boyfriend before she fuckinly hit me. I'm not surprised that they've continue their relationship and it'll end up to marriage. They're meant to be. What? Fuck. All she want from me was fame and after I gave it to her, she went back to his ex. User motherfuckers.

She really love Brandon, I can tell. Why would she left me if she really loves me? What kind of asshole will do that? I admit, some part of myself was sad because the girl I used to love is getting married soon but hundred percent of myself was mad, totally mad at her because of shit she did to me. It's the most unforgettable and hurtful experience for me, yeah?

Okay stop. Stop thinking about fuckers, Niall. Just focus. Focus on WWA Tour, fans, food and..Caitlyn. She helped me through everything. It's weird that I fell inlove with a fan, which I didn't expect. I'll be honest, I didn't like her at first because I've been confused about my feelings. I still love the user that time.

I thought I will never ever like Caitlyn because she's a very cheerful and amazing girl. At first I thought that she only like us because we're famous, but I've proved that wrong. She enjoy her company with us, she treat us like an ordinary people. I thought bringing Caity with us was the worst decision because she's a fan and I seriously think that she'll fangirl every seconds we breath. But I've proved that wrong...again.

These past few days, I felt something. My feelings for her got really stronger. Cuddling, entwined hands, kissing her forehead and cheek. Only couples will do that, right? But we're not even together, we're not dating, we're not couple and it confuses me alot. She likes me, I know she likes me. Thanks to Eleanor. I like her, I love her. But we're too shy to admit it to one another. I'm not coward but, it's just, I'm afraid.

"Niall?" Harry interrupted my thoughts while he slightly opened my room door. "Where is Caity and Louis?" He continued.

"They'll pick Eleanor up." I got up from the bed and sat at the edge of it.

"Oh." He stared at the floor and when he was about to close it..

"Harry? Can I talk to you for a minute?" I requested. I sound like a desperate dick but I don't care. I know I'm ready for this. Ready for her.

"Of course, about what buddy?" He entered the room and closed the door behind him. He's half naked, barechest exposed while there's a towel around his neck. I've notice that he spend too much time at the gym. Working hard, yeah?

"Uh, it's.. It's about-"

"Caitlyn." He sat beside me and fuckinly read my mind. But how? Am I too obvious? Smirk play through his lips and spoke; "Niall, it's totally obvious. You like her from the start, from the first time you met her but you were just afraid to admit it. Niall, you like her. It's been a long time but you keep on hiding your feelings towards her. If I were you, I'll confess and ask her to be my girlfriend." He fuckinly advices me like a pro. But wait, I thought he likes Caitlyn? Maybe.. Maybe that was only my thought? Maybe jealousy always takes over me and I fuckinly overthink?

"You wouldn't let me finish my sentence but you advices me like a pro." I joked and he just simple smile. "Anyway, I guess you're right. I love her already but... I'm afraid." I looked at the floor and looked back at him.

"Don't be. Caity is a good girl and her personality is way better compared to Barbara's." He assures me. Maybe he's right? "So what's your plan?"

What's my plan? I don't know. I know it's a very simple question but I can't find the right answer. A very sure answer.

"I don't know man. That's why I wanted to talk to you. Maybe you can help me?" I raised an eyebrow as I looked at him. He looked at the floor and deeply think. I wanted to take her to a restaurant for our first date but...paps. I don't wanna ruin our first date because of fucking paps.

"I know a place." He looked at me and smiled.

"What place?" I bit my lower lip, hoping that the place was perfect.

"I'll fix the place tomorrow, just ask her out tomorrow mate. Trust me." He pat my shoulder.

"Thanks lad. I never thought you'll be the one who'll set us up. I mean, at first I seriously think that you like her. That you're doing your moves to get her but I'm wrong. Thanks mate, thanks alot." I brotherly hugged him. He rubbed my back. I never thought Harry will help me through this. I seriously think that he likes Caitlyn...but I'm wrong. I judge too quickly.

We broke the hug and I smiled at him. "I'll just take a shower and be ready for dinner." He said as he got up from the bed and made his way out of my room.

Harry's POV.

I breath heavily as I closed the door behind me. What the fuck, Harry? Setting them up together? Smooth Harry, smooth. Spending my time at the gym was my way to avoid Caitlyn. Not avoid, it's just, I just need some time to think. I just need some distraction. I still can't forget the time I kissed her, forcingly kissed her because I think that she'll felt the same way if I did that, but I'm wrong. I'm such a douchébag. Her lips was so soft, so pinkish, so perfect. Fuck Harry? What the hell am I thinking?

Caitlyn was happy whenever she's with Niall and Niall does the same. They're both so happy together. Maybe setting them up will help me to lose some pain. Lose or gain more pain, Styles? Seeing your love one with another guy will kill you alot but.. this is for my mate. Like I said, I'll help them both to be together. If Niall is happy, I am too. I love Caitlyn, but Niall is her happiness. Even though it's so hard to accept that Caitlyn and I are just friends, I'll try. I'll try to accept this hurtful truth just for Niall.

Caitlyn's POV.

I opened the door and saw Niall and Harry playing video games. They're too busy playing and they don't even notice nor hear the door's creak?

"We're home!" I yelled. They slightly jump on the couch and dropped the controllers. "Fuck." I heard them groan. Laughter escape from my mouth.

"Where's Louis and Eleanor?" Harry got up from the couch and greeted me.

"Outside, getting El's bag I think." I smiled back at him and he went outside. He's in the mood, yeah? I've notice that he didn't talk to me that much like we've used to. Gosh, I wanna stop this drama.

I went upstairs, to Niall and I's room to take a nap. I'm tired and thank God this is my last day of menstruation. I lay down to our bed and the door slightly opened, Niall.

"Uh, Caitlyn? Can I talk to you?" He entered the room and closed the door. He came closer and sat on the edge of the bed.

"It's about?" I got up and crossed my leg like an Indian sit as I sat next to him.

He looked at me while smirk play through his lips. "Just wear anything nice tomorrow night, okay?" He smiled at me and I just simply nodded. I felt my cheeks turn into red. Is he asking me out? Date?

He came closer to me and lean into my ear. "So it's settled then? Seven o'clock, okay?" He whispered to my ear and gives shivers to my spine. I heard him chuckle as he close the door, helping others to prepare for dinner.