Rejection <SoonHoon>

『4』

not only do i want to say thank you for 2k reads... i wanna congratulate seventeen. i watched the performance and was actually crying the whole way through. theyve come so far and theyve done so well, i couldnt be any prouder of them.

soonyoung laid in his bed, his blanket wrapped around his body and his hair sticking to his pillow. he faced the door, the urge to stand up was stong, but not strong enough.

he missed his friends, especially seungkwan and seokmin, but he was to scared to leave his safe haven. he found himself still missing the short male and he couldn't figure out why.

the dark haired boy spent another hour laying in his bed, convincing himself that he would be fine, and he finally pushed the blanket off his body. he stood up and slowly walked to the door, his heart rate accelerating. his hand rested on the metal handle for a few moments before he pushed down on it, unlatching the door and pushing it open.

soonyoung could hear minghao and junhui arguing about something in chinese, and he could faintly hear mingyus laugh. he wandered down the hall was, freezing when he heard his name fall from his voice.

"maybe hoshi just doesnt want to talk to anyone" his voice was shaky and quiet, almost as if he was afraid to voice his own opinion, and soonyoung frowned.

"maybe if you had actually said something he would be out here right now" wonwoos voice was low and gruff, and soonyoung could picture his clenching his fists with his signature glare.

it seemed that the brunette had took it upon himself to dislike jihoon, and it didn't bother the dark haired boy as much. wonwoo was capable of making his own decisions, and if he chose to dislike the blonde, then that's what he chose.

soonyoung wanted to dislike jihoon just as much as wonwoo did, he wanted to be able to taunt the male or simply ignore him. but he couldn't. so he faked it.

the dark haired boy walked into the main room, his skin was pale, his dark hair was a mes s, and his clothes looked almost a size too big. wonwoo shot upwards from mingyus lap, immediately rushing towards soonyoung, pulling the skinny boy in a hug.

"are you feeling better?" wonwoo squealed as soonyoung nodded slightly, and pulled him into another hug.

"HYUNG IS BACK!" at once all 9 boys came to the living room, jeonghan and seungcheol in the lead, curious to what wonwoo meant. the dark haired male soon found himself being hugged by everyone, except for jihoon, who had disappeared as soon as he came out.

jeonghan was in tears, and soonyoung couldn't help cry with the older. his hyung went on a tangent about how worried he was, and how he hated that he wasny eating. he hugged the skinny boy, telling him that he loved him, before he grabbed seungcheol and rushed to the kitchen.

seokmin was also crying, and so was seungkwan, and they pulled soonyoung into a group hug, all three of them in tears. nobody except wonwoo knee why the boy was avoiding the group, but everyone could tell he was upset about something.

"hyung it's been so different without you" soonyoung smiled through a thick layer of tears, never truley realizing just how loved he really was, and he hugged the two in front of him.

And even though he knew everyone had him in their hearts, he couldn't help the longing he felt. He knew what he wanted. He knew who he wanted. He knew why he wanted it. And he knew he couldn't have it. And that void could never be filled.

The rest of the day continued like this, hugs from the members constantly, who felt the need to remind Soonyoung he was wanted, plenty of food thanks to Jeonghan, who was worried about the blondes health, and laughs from everyone around him, grateful that he was back with the group again.

minghao and junhui never left each other's sides and seungkwan wouldn't stop singing, practicing for whatever reason. hansol wouldnt stop changing the channel, even though the drama that was on was entertainment enough. jisoo kept complaining to seungcheol about how loud everyone was being.

chan was asleep on the couch, a small smile on his lips as he snuggled up into jeonghan. mingyu and wonwoo had disappeared, claiming that they wanted to take a walk and leaving the large group to themselves and seokmin had been on the phone with someone since lunch ended.

soonyoung couldnt get his mind off of jihoon, no matter how hard he tried. he found himself wondering where the shorter male was, and he almost asked jeonghan if he knew but changed his mind.

the rest of the evening carried on, the group enjoying soonyoungs company and watching dramas to pass the time. yet jihoon never came home, and soonyoung couldnt help but wonder why.