Rejection <SoonHoon>

『5』

soonyoung sat on the couch, leaning against Jisoo, while another drama played from the tv. the other boys were out doing who knows what who knows where, but seungkwan and hansol mentioned going out for a coffee with junhui and minghao. while jeonghan, seungcheol and chan went to the park.

soon enough soonyoung had fallen asleep, jisoo had left to go meet up with seokmin, who was currently third wheeling with mingyu and wonwoo and, when the dark haired male woke up he was alone, the tv was turned off, and only the lamp light left on.

when his stomach growled soonyoung stood up, waddling to the kitchen on the hunt for something small. he entered the kitchen, but stumbled and barely caught his balance on the counter near him. his eyes widened, his breathing hitched as he stared at the small figure in front of him.

lee jihoon stood three feet in front of him, his chapped lips parted and his eyes watery. he stared up at the dark haired male the words swirling around his head but getting stuck in his throat.

soonyoung stood statue still for a few moments before he turned around and walked right back to the living room. jihoon trailed after him a jumble of words falling out of his mouth. soonyoung continued to walk fighting tears the way back to his room, before the blonde grabbed his wrist.

the older froze with one hand on the doorknob and the other trapped around jihoons fingers. the younger sighed, before he started speaking and soonyoungs heart started to beat unevenly.

"hoshi, im sorry. i was so stupid and i wasnt thinking, and i really hate myself right now, and i just want you to tell me that you dont hate me"

he ended in a huff, his face red and his throat dry as soonyoung stood frozen. the dark haired male turned around slowly as a tear slowly slide down his face, and he bit his lip.

"i dont hate you woozi. i cant hate you. thats the problem"

jihoon lowered his head and let go of soonyoungs wrist, turning towards the main room before he changed his mind and threw his arms around the dark haired males shoulders.

soonyoung stood frozen solid, his mind in a wreck, and his heart beating out of control. in an instant his arms were around jihoon, not caring about the fact that the younger didnt want what he wanted. he only wanted him back.

"hoshi!"

soonyoung was woken up by jisoo shaking him slightly and confusion spread through soonyoungs mind. he looked up at jisoo and his heart broke when he realized he was dreaming, about the blonde. again. the male sighed and turned to thr brunette who just smiled sadly.

"i didnt mean to wake you, but you should move to the room" the boy nodded his heart aching and he stood up slowly. he opened his door, the room empty because the others still out, and he laid down in his bed.

soonyoung closed his eyes once more and he started to cry. his tears drenched his pillow, he kept brushing his face and his sobs filled the room. jisoo had knocked, concerned about what was wrong, but scurried off when soonyoung had a few choice words to spare.