Pregnant By A Gangster

Ch.22 Leaving Again

JOVANNY'S POV.

After being shot, it made me realize and rethink a lot. Chanelle is pregnant with my kids. I can't risk putting them in danger. This is the kind of thing that made me tell her I didn't want the babies in the first place. I love her and our son and daughter unconditionally it's just indescribable.

But I know what I have to do.

Today there's a meeting with all the bosses so I'm gonna tell them my plans today.

I sit in the conference room alone waiting. No ones here yet and I wanna be alone for a bit anyways. Then Jay comes in.

"hey what are you doing in here by yourself I'm usually the first one here" he says as he comes over to me and sits next to me. "um, I don't know just, thinking what I'ma tell the bosses about my plans" I tell him. He scrunches his eyebrows.

"what plans?" he asks. "after what happened, I decided that, I'm gonna leave Chanelle" I tell him. "what??" he asks in shock. As my best friend he knows how much I'm in love with her.

"it's not safe for her or the babies, I know she'll probably think it's cause I don't want her or them anymore but that's not the case at all, I'm trying to protect them, Lucca and Cecilia-" I say but he cuts me off.

"Cecilia? I thought you were naming her Ariyah" he asks. "we changed it" I tell him. And we did. Cecilia was my great grandmothers name. She passed away last week.

"oh, well continue" he says. "oh well yeah I just, I think she'd just be, way better off with that, Savino guy, anybody but me" I tell him. "damn bro, when you planning to leave?" he asks.

"after the baby shower" I tell him. Then the large wooden doors open and in comes in all the men and sit down. Chanelle's father and brothers are here too. Which makes this so much easier.

"everyone, take a seat" Carmine the big boss says and they all do. "um boss" I say once everyone is seated. "I uh, wanted to, talk about some plans, I have in mind" I start. "about what?" he asks curiously.

"after the shooting, I want to take my missions and business to New Jersey for a while" I tell him. He opens his mouth to reply but before he can say anything Antonio does. "what about Chanelle" he snaps.

"that's why I'm doing it" I start. He scrunches his eyebrows. I lick my lips. "this is exactly what I didn't want for her or our kids, today it's me tomorrow it's them, she needs better, I just, I have to leave her" I tell them.

"you mother-" Cesar starts as he stands up but Victor stops him. "stop, he's right son" he says. Chanelle's brothers look at him like he's crazy. "I understand what you're trying to do for my daughter and grand children, but you do know, she will, marry someone else" he says.

I get a knot in my throat. The thought of that KILLS me. I can't picture that. But I know it has to be done. I hesitate but nod. "I do have, business you can take care of in the Bronx, but it will take, at least 3-4 years" Carmine says.

"that's fine" I say with no emotion. "when do you wanna go?" he asks. "after the baby shower, in about 11 days" I tell him. He nods. "well alright then, I'll set everything up" he says. I nod. The rest of the meeting I don't even pay attention.

I just zone out. I don't wanna leave Chanelle. I don't wanna leave our son and daughter. I don't want someone else to raise my kids. But I have to think about what's best for them. I'm not shit compared to the guys that were in line to marry Chanelle.

Her father hand picked them for a reason. I was only suppose to marry her cause I got her pregnant. I doubt it but maybe one day me and Chanelle can be together again. Who knows..

Before I knew it everyone's standing up to leave snapping me out of my thoughts. I decide to go up to Victor and Chanelle's brothers.

"sir, can I talk to you for a minute" I ask quietly. He nods and the 4 of them face me. "look, I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused, and the pain I've put Chanelle through, I didn't mean to get her pregnant, but I did and, this is the reason why I never wanted her to get pregnant, I don't deserve her, she doesn't deserve to deal with me, I'm not doing this to hurt her in any way, I just think, she'll be better off, the babies too" I tell them disappointedly.

"Thank you for thinking about my princess, I know it's going to be hard to leave her and the children, I'll respect your decision" he says also in a disappointed too. I smile and nod. They shake my hand and begin to leave.

"hey" Sebastian says before I could turn around and walk away. "Chanelle's not gonna want you to leave, I know you, my brothers and my dad think this is a good idea but I don't, cause it's not, it will destroy Chanelle if you leave her and the twins" he tells me.

"her and the babies will be in better hands, the guy she marries, will make her happy, and, be a better father figure than I will ever be" I reply. He sighs. "well look, I don't know when you're coming back, or if you'll even ever come back, but, I can send you pictures of them once they're born" he offers.

I think. How can I look at pictures of MY kids. They'll look like me, and they'll look like Chanelle. OUR creations..

I nod. He smiles and nods back then leaves. I sigh and turn around to see Jay coming up to me. "so you're really going huh?" he asks. "yup, I guess" I tell him. "well, if you're gonna go, I'll go with you, I'll help you take care of business, maybe you'll change your mind and come back" he says with a smirk.

"I doubt that but thanks bro, I appreciate it" I tell him as we do a handshake and walk out. I have 11 days to spend time with Chanelle. Get a few last moments with her to remember. Cause right after the baby shower, she'll know I'm leaving.