Book of Vents

Everything Taken

Everything was taken in just one instant... heh.. who would of known how fast everything you loved, everything you fought for, everything that ever mattered, everything gone.

I knew for such a long time that I wasn't normal. It wasn't a normal thing to have mental switches, where you can be talking with your mother about what chores need to be done one minute... where one thing said and a second later, you're pinning her down with one hand and you're holding a bloody knife in the other.

Well, here's how everything went to shit and was stolen from me in just a single moment. I don't have much time till the police arrive and take me to a high security facility or an insane asylum.

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I smiled happily as I picked up my pet gerbil gingerly from it's cage and placed Smokey gently on my shoulder. I yawned and walked into the living room where my mother sat in her chair, reading a small novel.

"Heya Mom. What needs to be done around the house today?" I asked, sitting in the chair in front of her. She stood, laying the book down on the table next to her and started to walk at her normal slow pace.

"Not a lot today. Plus, I wouldn't want to overwork you--" she soon regretted the words.

I unknowingly had lunged forward, my gerbil had fallen to the chair I had been sitting in moments ago. An unforgotten brown pocket knife had been taken out of my pocket and was now in my hands.

My mom screaming out, though I didn't hear her cries till moments later, "Call the police! Call them quick! Help!"

One hand had the knife tightly in my grasp, the other holding one of my mother's hands down. I had stabbed her twice, before I saw the blood and then froze in fear. I had stopped screaming the words, "That's all you ever say to me you fucking cunt ass bitch!"

I stumbled back off of her, dropping the knife. She sat up, moving away from me with feared eyes. I stepped forward once, arms out forward to try and help, "No! Stay away from me, you monster!"

I stumbled back a bit rougher, tears forming in my eyes. What have I done...

I run away from her, my sister then seeing the blood and rushing to the other room to see a horrifying sight. I could hear her dialing the phone, three quiet -but also echoing- clicks of 9-1-1.

I ran and ran, I didn't bother changing clothes, I was still to much in shock. I was heading to the only place I felt safe, my boyfriends.

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I was panting by the time I arrived, I basically crawled up the four steps to the door and knocked anxiously. Soon he opened the door, worry in his eyes... at first.

"Holy shit!" he closes the door, rushing to my side, "What even in the fuck happened?"

I take a moment to catch my breath, "I don't... really know..." I look up at him, "I.. I think I may have... tried to kill.. my mom.."

Soon hearing the words tried to kill, he stood and stepped away from me slowly. His eyes widened in fear, mine widening from a different fear... rejection. "Stay... stay away from me.."

His voice was shaky, I stood slowly, using the wall next to me, tears filling my eyes as I slowly felt my heart cracking from realization of what's happening. "W..what..? No, please... I won't hurt you!"

I tried to get closer to him, but he jumped back, "You're a fucking monster! How do I know you won't snap!"

The words felt like shotgun shells piercing my heart. I fell to the ground, he frantically pulled out his phone and dialed quickly. That was the moment... my whole world shattered. He was my drive. My reason for living. My everything.