Leigh-Anne
Giggles slipped from the blonde's lips as I peppered her with kisses. Her giggles were like music to my ears. I kept kissing her all over her pretty face, couldn't seem to get myself to stop. The blonde was like a drug to me, a drug I couldn't live without.
"I love you, Nacho Queen, but we need to talk."
Uh-oh. Well, I did know what she wanted to discuss. I wasn't available, I was in a relationship with someone else, and that bothered Perrie. She wanted me to break up with my girlfriend, but I didn't want to. I loved her just as much as I loved Perrie.
"We've had this discussion, Pezmania. What more is there to say?" I sighed.
"Look, babe, I don't want to give you an ultimatum, but I feel like I have to" Perrie said coldly.
The blonde lifted my chin up. Her piercing blue eyes bored into mine, saw straight through my soul.
"Either, you break up with Jade or you won't get to see me anymore. I'm sick of hiding, sick of not being able to be with you. I want to wake up next to you, I want to eat breakfast with you, go shopping, hang with friends...but I can't, and it's killing me" Perrie said.
"You know I can't break up with Jade. She's been there for me when nobody else has. She loves me, Perrie, she treats me right. Breaking up with her would be stupid" I said sincerely.
"Why did you put yourself in a position where you could lose her? If you loved her, you wouldn't risk your relationship. Why cheat on her if she's so perfect?!" Perrie spat.
Perrie pushed me off of her. Fuming, she got out of the king-size bed we'd shared many magical nights in. Feeling bad for hurting her, again, I walked after her. She'd leave if I let her walk away, and I didn't want that. I loved her too much.
Finding her in the hallway, I saw how she dressed herself for going out. She was almost done. She stopped tying her shoes when she noticed I had come after her. Looking up, meeting my gaze, her face softened.
Wanting to reassure her that she meant the world to me, I engulfed her in a bone-crushing hug. At first she hesitated, but then she hugged me back.
"I know you love Jade, but it isn't right to go behind her back. She doesn't deserve that, Leigh-Anne. Break up with her if you want to be with me. I refuse to meet up with you as long as you two are together" Perrie said calmly.
"I will break up with her. Just not now. Give me time" I pleaded.
"I've given you enough, babe. A whole year. I'm tired of waiting."
Perrie broke apart from the hug. Tears filled her blue eyes, threatened to spill. She wasn't the only one who was sad, though. I was too. I didn't want to let her go. I wanted to be with her, wanted to love her. I wanted those things with Jade, too. But I couldn't have both. And I couldn't choose between them either. They were both amazing.
"Call me when Jade is out of your life. I love you."
The blonde captured my lips in a soft kiss. It wasn't one of those kisses we shared in the bedroom. This was a goodbye-kiss, meaning I wouldn't see her again unless I ended things with Jade.
Why does love have to be so goddamn difficult?
When we pulled apart, we exchanged I love you's. Perrie opened the door. She gave me a kiss on the cheek, then she left. Not being able to watch her walk away, I closed the door. Sliding down the door, I broke down in tears. Fuck.
That the smell of her perfume lingered in the air didn't make it any easier. If anything, the smell made it harder to accept the fact that I probably wouldn't see her, kiss her, or touch her ever again. And it hurt. It hurt so fucking much.
I buried my face in my knees, allowed the tears to fall. I had just lost someone I loved, I had every right to be sad, had every right to cry. It felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest, as if Perrie took it with her when she left.
I cried for what felt like forever. I didn't stop until the door opened and the woman I was supposed to be faithful to, walked inside.
"Oh Leigh..." Jade cooed.
Being the kindhearted young woman she was, she got down on her knees. Flashing me a sympathetic smile, she wrapped her arms around me and pulled me in for a hug. I started crying again, couldn't seem to hold it together.
"Did she hurt you?" Jade asked softly.
"What?"
Pulling away, I looked into her eyes. I was confused. Did Jade know about Perrie? If so, why hadn't she said anything before? Was it because she also cheated? No, she was too good for doing something so stupid. Jade was a good person, unlike me.
"I know she was here, Leigh-Anne. Now tell me, did she hurt you?" Jade asked.
"No, she..." I trailed off.
How would I explain what had happened? I felt so stupid. My sweet Jade didn't deserve this. I didn't want to break her by telling her why I was crying.
"How do you know that she was here?" I asked curiously.
"Her perfume" she shrugged.
I should've guessed. Perrie's perfume lingered everywhere. You could smell it days after she'd been here, fucking me in the bed I shared with Jade. I should've known that Perrie's ridiculously expensive perfume one day would reveal my dirty little secret.
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