A Taste Of Love

chapter sixteen

Lexi's POV;

I screamed at my wolf to stop but she wouldn't listen. I cried softly in my head as she lunged at Ryan, thankfully he moved out the way. He grabbed onto my wolf as she tried to get out of the door.

"Change! Now!" He roared using his Alpha tone.

She didn't want to listen at first, even with my begging. After him ordering again we shifted back into my human form. I ran to the corner furthest from Ryan before dropping to the floor, hugging my knees as I cried. I didn't want to hurt him. Neither did my wolf she wanted to hurt the mean girl. My sobs filled the silence in the room.

"Lexi I'm sorry. You can't ever do that again. Even if Dawn annoys you like that again you can't go wolf. What if the humans had found out about us?" Ryan knelt down onto his knees, sitting next to me.

"I-i'm sorry. I didn't mean to, I'm so sorry. It was just my wolf took over, I didn't want to hurt you. I'm so sorry Ryan, please don't hate me" I sobbed wrapping my arms around him, not wanting to let go.

"Lexi I forgive you. You just can't do that again. One because humans can't find out about us and two; I don't want you to get hurt." He said rubbing my back gently as my sobs subsided.

"I won't do that again, I promise" I gave him a weak smile but blushed as I realized I was naked. How did I not notice this before?! My cheeks became hot as I curled into a ball hugging my knees to my chest, moving away from Ryan and trying to cover my body.

His eyes twinkled as he looked at me, I noticed they became darker,

"Ryan?"

He shook his head, his eyes returning to their normal state before he shrugged off his jacket. I put it on as he turned around; it came to my knees.

"Thanks"

He smiled before staring at the wall concentrating hard.

"Holly's on her way with some clothes for you and then you'll make it for last period"

I nodded hugging his jacket close to me.

"You look good in my clothes" he smiled as he stared at me, his eyes staring at my legs for a few seconds.

"Thank you" I whispered trying to fight the blush.

Before he could reply the door burst open and Holly came in with a bundle of clothes. She handed them to me before walking out. I stared at Ryan until he turned around before throwing the clothes on. I was now wearing a blue t-shirt saying 'you know you love me' and some jeans and flat shoes. Wrapping Ryan's jacket around me I told him he could turn around.

He grabbed my hand as he walked me to my last class, he had Art with me. I tried to sniff his jacket without him noticing, he smelled so yummy. We lined up outside the class until the teacher let us in. She had yellow hair and wore a pretty long blue dress with flowers on; it suited her.

"Right class I'm Mrs Deane, for this semester you will be painting things that are important to you. You can also create a collage of the paintings at the end if you wish. This will be counted towards your over all grade so please try your best. You may begin" she smiled before sitting at a table with a big box with wires hanging out of it.

I watched as the other kids walked off to the back, picking up bottles of different colors and some pots with water inside and paintbrushes. I looked to the side to ask Ryan what to do except he wasn't there. Panic coursed through me, where was he? I relaxed as I saw him walking back with two pots of water and loads of bottles of the different colors and two paintbrushes.

"Thank you" I smiled and hugged him after he placed everything down. I snuggled closer as he wrapped his arms around me. The little shocks and tingly feeling spread through my body but I didn't care. I was happy.

Pulling back he smiled before turning to his paper and began his work. I stared down at the big white paper. Things that matter to me. I smiled as Ryan popped into my head. Grabbing a pencil I drew the outline onto the paper before grabbing the paints. Halfway through the lesson the teacher went around looking at peoples work.

"Lexi that's amazing" Mrs Deane smiled as she looked at my work.

I blushed as Ryan glanced over, a pretty smile on his face. I glanced back at my painting; I had drawn the place where me and Ryan went and a nice black wolf and a white one. Me and Ryan.

"Thank you" I mumbled before continuing to paint the green grass.

Hanging up our paintings to dry I helped Ryan clean up before grabbing my bag and waiting for the bell to ring. I couldn't wait to go home.

I ran out of the door and towards Ryan's car when I was pulled back.

"We aren't going home?" I turned to face Ryan confused. I thought we were going home.

"We have detention"

Groaning I followed Ryan as he led us down the halls and to a room. We sat at the back. I felt myself get hot, what was going to happen? Were they going to yell? I didn't like being yelled at, it scared me. Was Ryan angry at me? It was our fault that we were here, if I hadn't told Ryan that the people were mean he wouldn't have got angry and then tiggled me. I got Ryan into trouble. I didn't mean to.

I jumped as I felt sparks course through my body, Ryan was holding my body underneath the table. He smiled softly at me but I couldn't return it. He must be angry at me, I was so stupid. I got us in detention and its all my fault.

"Lexi what's wrong?" Ryan whispered as he lent over.

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to get you in detention" I said softly as a tear dropped from my eyes.

I was always crying, I was so weak. I hated it but I couldn't be strong. I spent years being weak, I was never going to change. I was a stupid mate for Ryan, he deserved someone pretty, who didn't cry all the time and who's dad wasn't trying to kidnap me back to him. He didn't deserve someone who was...was broken. He deserved someone special and smart. I was none of those things.

I couldn't do this to him. It wasn't fair, I was being selfish by hugging and making him look after me. He has his own life, one without me. I was horrible I even tried to hurt him, what kind of mate hurt her own? Pulling my hand out of Ryan's I scooted away from him and wiped my eyes, spending the rest of detention ignoring him.

The voice in my head whimpered and begged me not to do it but I didn't listen. I was selfish before but now I was giving him his life back. I kept my arms wrapped around my waist as we walked back to the car, if I didn't I would run into his arms. He looked hurt and confused and it was all my fault.

As soon as he stopped in front of the house I ran upstairs and threw my bag on the floor before grabbing a really big bag. I couldn't stay here. If I went away Ryan could be happy. I was making him sad I needed to go. I grabbed the clothes and shoes and threw them in. I threw a toothbrush and toothpaste in with a brush and was now kneeling on the floor.

I pulled one of the draws from the closet open and began to put food and water inside the bag. I didn't eat all the food, I would hide it in my pockets or under my pillow and then put it in here when no one was looking.

"What are you doing?"

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Updated 26th May 2012 enjoy