A Taste Of Love

chapter thirty four

Lexi's POV;

I chose a pair of sweatpants and a baggy black top with a smily face on it with my Nike trainers. Leaving my hair down I slowly walked downstairs to find Linda; the credit card in my pocket.

Most of the kids were out as it was Saturday, I had already planned to be home tutored. I didn't want to go back to school, James was still there and I wasn't sure if I could face him again. I had told Linda about it and she said she would have a tutor for me on Monday.

I passed a few cleaning people as I walked into the kitchen, Linda was sipping on a bottle of water.

"Ready to go?"

I nodded my head and let her lead me out to the back garden. We walked off to separate trees and I quickly folded my clothes neatly with the credit card in the pocket and shifted.

Stepping out I stared in awe at Linda's wolf, she was beautiful. She had a dark brown coat with splodges of white on her and black feet.

'Ready?'

I jumped a little as I heard her in my head, I was still getting used to this. Nodding my head I let my wolf take control as we ran through the woods.

I smiled as I felt the wind brushing through my coat of fur, the dead leaves crunching under my feet and the feeling of freedom. I could hear birds chirping and the sounds of bunnies running around. I even saw a few butterflies as we ran. My wolf was content with finally being able to shift and run.

We ran for about an hour, stopping at a lake to take a drink before running back. Changing back into myself I quickly dressed and patted down my hair as Linda led us towards the garage with the cars. Ethan and some of the other kids had taught me names of the cars; Linda drove a blue mini convertible. We climbed in and set off to the shopping centre.

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We had bought some nice tops and dresses from a few shops. Then Linda took us to another one that had trousers and skirts; I bought a blue jean skirt and some more jeans. She then took us to a shoe shop. I laughed as she tried on really high, high heels and tried walking up and down the aisle. We had some McDonalds for lunch and were now on our way home.

A giggle left my lips as me and Linda drove home. She was singing along to Man I Feel Like A Woman by Shania Twain; pulling funny faces and dancing along to it.

A giggle escaped my lips as we began to sing the chorus as we drove towards the garage

"Oh, oh, oh, go totally crazy- forget I'm a lady,
Men's shirts- short skirts,
Oh, oh, oh, really go wild- doin' it in style,
Oh, oh, oh, get in the action- feel the attraction,
Colour my hair- do what I dare,
Oh, oh, oh, I wanna be free- yeah, feel the way I feel,
Man! I feel like a woman!"

We laughed and rolled up the windows before climbing out of the car; our hands full of bags. Turning around I blushed as I saw a few people at the garage doors smiling slightly; Ryan included. Linda just smiled sheepishly before walking forwards towards the door. Keeping my head down I did the same, pausing as I came to Ryan.

"Thank you" I said softly as I pulled out the card and handed it to him.

I didn't spend too much, I bought all the things that were in the sale. Even though he said I could buy what I wanted I still felt weird. Not waiting any longer I walked past and towards my room.

"Lexi wait!"

Should I turn around? Before I could choose the familiar feeling of tingles erupted on my arms and slowly travelled through the rest of my body.

"Here let me take your bags" his smooth voice entered through the air and I felt myself slightly melt.

'Forgive him'

Oh how I wanted to. I just wanted to spin around and hug him and never let go.

"...Lexi?"

"Huh?"

"I said pass me your bags please" Ryan motioned to the bags and I slowly held them out.

I don't know why he was talking to me or anything, but my wolf wasn't complaining. He gently took the bags from me and took my hand, breaking me from my thoughts and walking me upstairs.

My wolf was purring from having some skin contact with Ryan, even I liked it but I wouldn't tell him that. I hadn't realised we were in my room until I heard a door close. Looking up I stumbled back from the proximity of Ryan standing so close to me, when had he got there?

"Lexi..." he trailed off and rubbed the back of his neck.

"Yes?" I pressed on softly, I don't know why I was talking to him. I had spent all this time avoiding him and now here he was, in my room. Alone. With me.

My eyes followed him as he began to pace back and forth, stopping a few times to look at me before carrying on. My legs grew tired and I sat down on a small green bean bag that was in the room. Even though the pain wasn't too bad because Ryan was here, it did make me weak.

"Lexi...I'm so sorry. I-I should have trusted you. I should have believed you straight away, but it was so hard. Ho-she was the girl I had known my whole life, I guess I didn't want to believe it"

"Rya-"

"let me finish, please?" I nodded my head and just watched him.

My wolf whimpered and cried softy as we watched out mate, he look like he wanted to cry.

"Regardless of the fact that Holly was my best friend I should have believed you; my mate. You were given to me from the Moon Goddess and I should have never questioned your word. And for that I will always be sorry. Lexi I don't expect you forgive me now, today or even within the next few months. All I ask is that you give me a chance to spend the rest of my life trying to make up for what I did to you, please Lexi?"

He was so sweet. I could give him a chance right? I mean he hadn't gained my full trust yet but he wanted to fix this, fix us. He wanted to make us work again. And who I was I to stop him? He's my mate, I should forgive him. Let him gain my trust so we can have our happy ending.

Lifting myself off the bean bag I slowly stood up, making sure my legs would hold me up before taking small steps towards Ryan.

"Ryan I-"

A scream left my lips as I doubled over, pain erupting in my tummy. It felt like there was a fire creeping over my body, I felt myself begin to sweat. Why was it so hot? And this pain, what was it. I gasped as I felt a jolt in my lower parts before it began burning.

"Lexi! Lexi look at me" I could faintly hear Ryan's voice over my painful gasps and moans.

Looking up I felt myself drawn in by his eyes. How did I not notice how beautiful they were? My eyes travelled across his face; skimming over his strong jaw, his smooth cheeks and finally his plump lips.

As soon as Ryan placed a hand on my shoulder the pain subsided slightly but my lower parts were still burning...with need? I crawled onto his lap trying to ease the pain, he made it feel better like he always did.

"R-Ryan. What's h-happening to me?" I sobbed as the pain down there began to hurt even more.

I felt him wrap his arms around me and pull me closer to him, kissing my forehead as he rocked us back and forth. Another pain shot through my lower parts causing me to cry out,

"Ryan! H-help me" I sobbed, I don't know what was happening.

Why was this happening? And why wasn't Ryan making the pain go away? I balled my fists into his shirt as I cried, I was so scared.

I jumped slightly as the door burst open and Linda, Jack, Matt and Leela burst into the room.

"Whats wrong with her?" Linda rushed out as she dropped to her knees next to me and Ryan, stroking my hair softly.

I felt another burst of pain flow through my body and couldn't help the scream that left my lips.

"Mum, she's gone into heat"

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Updated 19th august 2012 - A/N: hi.... I know it's short and sort of a cliffhanger thing but :D I updated.. yay me.. I swear this chapter was so hard to write, I don't know why but for some reason I couldn't write it.. but anyways it's here and hopefully the next chapter won't take as long :P enjoy :D