A Taste Of Love

chapter twenty seven

 Lexi's POV;

"Ryan please don't, I don't want you to get hurt. Look I'll go back and maybe he will be nice again. He might let me visit you" I smiled trying to convince him, if he didn't fight then he couldn't get hurt.

I jumped as I felt something gripping my arms, looking up I saw Ryan's eyes were switching back and forth between black and blue.

"You. Are. Not. Going. Anywhere" he growled out slowly, his gripping on my arms stopped and he pulled me to his chest, wrapping his arms tightly around me. I was annoyed that he was doing this but I knew it was his wolf. I was starting to hate wolfs, they got in the way.

"But Ryan I don't want you to get hurt. Please?"

I watched as he closed his eyes, a breathe escaping his mouth before opening his eyes; they had returned to their blue colour.

"Lexi please don't make me yell at you. This is happening whether you like it or not, I refuse to give you back just so he can hurt you again. I promised I wouldn't let him hurt you again. I refuse to give you back. You're mine and it's staying that way!"

I glared at him, his eyes now dark black. I wasn't his, I wasn't anyones I was me, not someone's object. Pushing his arms off of me I stepped back,

"I'm not yours! I'm not an object Ryan! I'm asking you not to fight because I don't want anyone to get hurt, you and my dad especially. Yes he hasn't always been nice to me but he's still my daddy and I don't want him to get hurt. I don't want anyone to get hurt" I choked out the last bit fighting back tears.

"Lexi please you're staying here. You won't get hurt. Now come with me" he said calmly as he took my hand and led me out of the room before I could protest.

I followed numbly behind him as he pulled me down the halls. How was I gonna escape? Climb out of the window? Sneak out the back door? I jumped as I heard a slam, looking around I realised Ryan had shut a door and we were in some sort of study room.

There was a big book shelf ahead of us full of books, in front was a desk with a lamp and papers with pens on it. There was a big brown couch on the other side and a small fridge and TV.

"What are we doing here?" I asked as Ryan walked over to the desk and sat behind it on the chair.

"You are gonna sit on the couch and not leave the room until I am done. I'm going to call neighbouring packs and ask for help. Now sit please"

Glaring at him I walked over to the couch and sat down. After an hour of sitting there and listening to Ryan talk on the phone I began to swing my legs back and forth against the couch. I ignored Ryan's stare and kicked louder, I don't care if I annoyed him. He didn't listen to me. So I wasn't going to listen to him.

Pushing myself off the couch I walked towards the door pausing when I heard Ryan's voice.

"Where are you going?"

"Out"

"Where?"

"Away from you" I replied shortly before pressing down on the handle and opened the door.

I yelped as the door slammed shut, Ryan's body towering over mine. Spinning around I looked up at him,

"Move please"

"You're not leaving this room without me. Don't think I don't know what you're planning to do Lexi. You're not going back to him, ever"

How did he know? I didn't mention it.

"You can't control me Ryan! I don't want anyone to get hurt, please don't do this. I love you Ryan" I whispered the last part as I turned my back to him and tried to open the door.

The tingly feeling spread through my body as he placed his hands on my waist. I ignored him and pulled on the door opening it only to be pulled back onto his chest.

"Lexi I love you too, which is why you're not going back there just to be hurt. Let's just go to bed and we'll talk about it tomorrow morning."

Nodding my head I followed him down the halls, I stared up at him as we walked past my door.

"Where are we going?"

"My room"

Nodding a little I started walking again, how was I gonna get my suitcase?

"What suitcase?"

"I...err.. What? Who said suitcase?" I stuttered my mind falling blank of words.

"I can read your thoughts now that I marked you. Lexi. What. Suitcase?"

I stepped back a shudder running along my spine. He sounded scary, like how he did when he yelled at that wolf before. I kept my mouth shut as I backed down the hallway, Ryan stepping closer every time.

I yelped as I hit something, my body falling backwards until Ryan caught me. Avoiding looking at him I tried to push his hands away but with no luck.

"I said, what suitcase Lexi?"

"I don't know what you're talking about"

"Don't lie to me, I read your thoughts Lexi"

"without my permission"

"that's besides the point, Lexi I will search your room out I have to"

"you don't control me! I'm going to bed bye" I yelled at him before pushing away and running down the hall. Pushing my door open I shut it and locked it before running over to the bed. Dragging the suitcase out I grabbed my teddy from the bed and ran to the window.

I ignored Ryan's banging on the door and yelling as I opened the window. I tried picking up the suitcase but it was so heavy. Leaning against the wall I bent over my knees trying to breathe. I was terrified. I didn't want to go, I wanted to stay with Ryan but I couldn't. I couldn't let him get hurt because of me.

Bending down onto my knees I put my hands under the suitcase and lifted it against the wall. I groaned in pain as it dropped. Unzipping it I pulled out all the gifts Ryan bought me and put them in a plastic bag. Grabbing his jumper I slipped it on before walking to the window.

Placing one foot on it I heaved myself up. Swinging my legs off the window sill I shivered as the cold air bit at my legs. I jumped as I heard the door smash open.

"Lexi no!"

I took a breathe before jumping down, screaming and squeezing my bear and bag tight to me as I fell.

Pain erupted through my body as I fell to the ground. It was worse than all the times dad had hit me, worse than when I had that sharp thing in my back. I groaned and tried to sit up, whimpering as pain shot through my arm and legs.

Damn what was wrong with me? I needed to get away before Ryan got me. A tear escaped the corner of my eye and slid down my face as I glanced down at my body. My arm holding the bag of gifts was bent at a weird angle and my legs had blood covering the bottom of them. Using my free hand I brushed the rocks and sharp sticks off of my legs.

I gasped as I heard footsteps. Was it Ryan? Or was it someone else? Like the wolf that tried to hurt me before but them Ryan saved me.

Another tear slipped from my eyes as I crawled back, leaning all my weight on my good arm. I managed to crawl behind a small flower bush as the footsteps closed in on me. There was at least two or three people, I think.

Squeezing my bear close to me I muffled my sobs against the worn out fur. It felt like I was on fire, the pain was too much.

"Did you see where she went?" I heard a deep gruff voice.

"No, we'll go north. She can't have gone far" I heard a rough voice, like an older mans voice.

I held my breath as I heard their footsteps fade away. Dropping my teddy onto my lap I let a sigh escape my lips. I knew they weren't just anyone from the pack, I would have recognised their voices of they were. Why did they want me? And how did they know I jumped out the window?

"Found you"

I screamed before a hand was placed across my mouth muffling my screams.

"Lexi calm down woman."

I stopped screaming and glanced up at Matt.

"What are you doing here?" I asked quietly as I lent my back against him, I was still in agony but I was pushing the thoughts of it back.

"Saving you. What were you thinking jumping out of the window, it's two stories high Lexi! You could have killed yourself. Why did you do it anyway?"

"I can't let anyone fight, if I go back to dad Ryan won't get hurt. He was going to stop me from leaving so I jumped."

"Lexi you can't go back. Ryan's wolf will take over and kill anyone who's keeping you from him, especially your father"

My mouth dropped open as I stared at him wide eyed. But he wouldn't, would he? But then either way someone would get hurt and it would be my fault. If I went back to dad Ryan would hurt people and if I stayed with Ryan people would still get hurt. What was I supposed to do?

"Lexi we need to get you to the pack doctor, come on" he said as he placed both his hands under my knees and lifted me up. I cradled my bear and the bag in my good arm to my chest.

"Matt wait"

"What?"

"There were two men, I think they were looking for me. They said they were heading north, that's why I screamed. I thought you were them"

"Right I'll tell dad and get some people looking for them. But we need to get you fixed up, and back to Ryan. I'm pretty sure he's going mad right now."

Nodding my head I lent it against his chest as he walked us back to the door. It was uncomfortable, I could tell my wolf was restless being in someone else's arms but I didn't care. Matt opened the door and carried me down the hallway, down a set of stairs and stopped outside a wooden door.

"Amy!" Matt called out as he knocked on the door.

The door opened to reveal a stressed looking Amy, I felt bad. She was always fixing me up whenever I hurt myself. She needed a break from me, everyone did.

"Set her on the bed" she mumbled tiredly to Matt who carried me over to a small white bed.

I whimpered as he placed me down, my legs stinging slightly. I remained quiet as Amy moved about grabbing her kit. Matt left saying something about talking to his dad about border patrols. I hissed as Amy put some cream on my legs, they were stinging like hell. She had already bandaged my arm up and given me some tablets. I should be healed by the end of tomorrow.

I jumped as the door burst open, Ryan looked furious. I stared back and forth between Amy, I think they were talking to each other in their heads. My eyes pleaded with Amy not to leave me, she gave me a sad look and mouthed sorry before leaving the room.

"What the hell were you thinking Lexi?! You could have been killed you're lucky this all that you got."

I stared down at my hands as I heard him pace the floor, walking back and forth. I didn't mean to make him do mad, I was just trying to protect him; everyone. Tears welled in my eyes as he stormed over, his hands latching onto my wrists.

"Lexi look at me"

I stared down at our hands, focusing on the tingly feeling instead of the command he just gave me. A gasp escaped my lips as he cupped my face and pulled it to face him.

Before I could protest he smashed his lips onto mine. I whimpered and felt my lips swell as he pushed his tongue into my mouth. I was pretty sure his wolf had taken over. I pushed my good hand against him trying to push him off me, I didn't want him to kiss me. I didn't know what I wanted but it wasn't this.

Finally pushing him off me I scooted back into the pillows and watched as his eyes returned to their normal shade of blue.

"Lex-"

"we need to talk" I murmured softly as I rubbed my lips. They felt sore and bruised, I didn't like that kiss.

"You're right. What the hell were you thinking jumping out of the window? You could of died and then what? Did you even think about me when you jumped out of the window?! Or were you just being selfish?!"

I flinched as he yelled at me, his hands clenching and unclenching at his sides.

"Of course I thought of you. I did it so that nobody would get hurt. I thought if I went back you would be safe and so would everyone be. I wanted to protect you" I mumbled the last part softly to myself.

I didn't want him to be mad at me, I was trying to protect him. I loved him. Why couldn't he just see that?

"Lexi don't you get it? I don't need you to protect me, I can fight for myself. It's me that's supposed to be protecting you, which is freaking hard to do when you never listen.-"

"I do listen" I mumbled cutting him off.

"When? Because all you have done is do the opposite of everything I've said so far today. I told you to sit on the couch, you walked out. I asked you about the suitcase and you ignored me. I told you not to run off and you jump out of a two story high window nearly killing yourself! Now tell me where you were listening?"

I felt like I had been slapped across the face. I felt a sinking feeling in my stomach and a sharp pain in my chest. I tried to fight off the tears but I failed. One by one they began to cascade down my cheeks, I knew he was mad but that was hurtful.

Lifting a hand to my face I wiped the tears from my cheeks, well tried to; they kept falling. Sniffing slightly I ignored Ryan as he turned to look at me. He hadn't even realise I had been crying until he heard me sniffle.

I shuffled back into the pillows as he took steps towards me. Would he hit me? The thought of Ryan hitting me, tore me apart. I don't know if I could ever forgive him if he hit me. I forgave dad because he was my dad. But if Ryan hit me, I don't think I had an excuse to forgive him.

"I would never hit you" I broke away from my thoughts and looked up at him. He looked so sad, I instantly felt guilty for thinking that.

I stayed quiet unable to answer him, everything I thought had been true. I wasn't going to lie to him and say I was lying when I thought he would hit me.

"Let's go to bed." nodding my head slightly I allowed him to pick me up and carry me out the room. My body remained stiff in his arms as he carried us to his room, it was pretty stupid to think I would be out of his sight for a while.

I looked away from Ryan as he placed me on his soft bed. I stayed still as he gently pulled the covers on top of me. I felt him pause, as if he wanted to do something but thought better of it and and walked to the light switch.

Darkness filled the room after the small click and I heard Ryan's footsteps as he walked over to the bed. I closed my eyes and curled into a ball as much as possible without hurting myself ignoring him as the bed dipped.

I stared through the darkness looking through the small gap in the curtains. A small stream of light from the moon and made its way into the room. Curling into the pillow more I ignored the feeling of emptiness in my chest and closed my eyes. Counting my breathes until I fell asleep.

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Updated 10th July 2012 yay I uploaded :D I'm actually starting to enjoy writing this so I may upload by the end of the week if you're lucky :D so do you guys like what I did? I was going to let her escape but I have a different idea for where this is going. Anyways enjoy :D