Can I ever forgive? [MAJOR EDITING]

School drama

I walked in to my school slowly, even slower than usual, because I didn't want to face my teachers and classmates, I was embarrassed, I didn't want people to think of me as the person who doesn't want her own life.

I got to my class and when I got there, the first person that was me pointed to me shouting "I want to commit suicide!" dramatically. God help me.

The rest of the class looked up and burst out laughing. "I want to die!" Charlie said as he acted horribly dramatic.

"I don't want my life!" Lily looked like she was cross as she said that. I don't know why but after that sentence she rolled her eyes and walked away.

"I'm going to jump!" oh, wow, everyone's joining in, great. They blocked my view of Lily as they continued.

They kept saying stuff like that until I lost it. I shouted at them "SHUT UP!" as I slapped the last person who said something across the face, so unlucky. Well, I had to lose my temper on someone, didn't I, I have anger issues, don't judge.

He screamed in pain as he fell to the ground. His friend tried to catch him, but failed.

I looked around me at the people who said all those stuff to me, I slapped, punched and kicked them all, I could take no more of this, now I feel like killing myself even more!

All the people who I took anger on were holding their bruises in pain. I looked around the class as I saw the teacher walking in, oh gosh.

She came over and started shouting at me "Why did you do this?" my anger rose as she took out the cane and pointed it at my face, does she know that if she moved a tiny bit she would make me blind as she stabs me in my eye?

I swallowed my saliva and said "They were teasing me of committing suicide." I said angrily, almost shouting. Then, I found myself crying, I don't know why, I was just crying at the thought of this.

I was now sobbing as a lot of tears rolled down from my eyes like a stream, I tried rubbing it off but it kept flowing out.

"That doesn't mean you have to bully them back!" my teacher shouted so loudly that i jumped, oh how I hate it when she does this.

"But they were teasing me!" I shouted angrily as I found my voice changed because I was crying.

"I don't care! You can't punch and kick people!" she was now screaming at me as she swung the cane around the place. DOESN'T SHE REALIZE SHE COULD KILL SOMEONE WITH THAT?

"She slapped me too!" the person who I got to first said pointing to me. "Be quite!" I screamed at him making his mouth shut and him look down.

"How many people did you hurt this time?" my teacher said as she stared at me with nothing but anger in her eyes.

"The people who Claire hurt please put up your hand." whoa, I didn't know I hurt so many people. She counted their hands and said to me "Wow, that's a record, 7 people!"

She took my hand like she was a thief stealing something from me, my hand, it even hurt when she did this, she didn't even start whacking me yet!

"One" she said as she whacked me with the cane with all her strength. "Two" I was still crying as I shouted in pain "Three" I started getting angry as I felt my hand was about to burst open in pain.

"Four" I tried pulling back as I shouted "It hurts!" in pain. She replied "Good." What the hell. "Five" my anger boiled "Six" I couldn't stand it anymore, I felt my hand boil with pain.

"Stop it! I hate it! Why are you abusing children?" I screamed loudly as my classmates' eyes widened. I saw my teacher getting more angry "Seven"

I screamed in pain as loud as I could followed by a really loud cry. My teacher let go of my hand and I ran to my seat crying.

I put my hand on my table and buried my face in it. I grabbed my hand in pain with my face still on my hands.

I felt my hands getting wetter and wetter as I cried harder and harder, I hate my life so much!

It wasn't that comfortable, I could say, but I didn't want to pick my head up at all, it just couldn't get up, it felt so heavy.

I couldn't pick my head up at all for the rest of that class as I continued to cry. My teacher just ignored me and kept teaching.

Then, I started thinking, why did I do that? I just hurt 7 people just because they said something! I don't want people to be hurt! I'm just hurting people like my teachers! I hate how my teachers do stuff like that, but it's similar to what I did! How can I be like my teachers? How am I such a bad person? I just want to make friends! I don't know why I did that. I just can't control my temper, oh how I wish I could. Well, I have to try.

More tears flowed from my eyes as I thought of what I have done, I thought of what a bad person I am, why would I do that?

Yey, long chapter! (compared to the others) hope you guys like it.

So Claire got back to school and all that drama happened, ya, she does have a really bad temper, she didn't mean to though.

Don't try to hurt people if you know how it's like to be hurt by people.

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