After our little makeup session, I should really say big but I don't want to increase the size of his ego like it has dramatically after that. We were just laying on my bed, my head resting on his chest and friends on the TV. He was playing with my hair that was a tangled mess. After our activity, we were both covered in scratches and bites. His back was totally messed up from my nails and I don't feel bad about it at all, he was mine and people deserve to see that. Just like people will know that I am his from the hickeys scattering my neck and- the entirety of my body, basically.
Lexi and Tristan still hadn't unlocked my door; I wasn't even sure if they were still in my apartment. I didn't really mind if we were never let out, I would gladly stay here forever.
It was insane what I felt towards him. I couldn't even describe it to its full extent, whatever I say wouldn't do it justice. It's literally like I'm the dreamer and he's the dream. I love everything about him, all of his flaws, his tears, his laughs and his smiles. Every single inch of him is perfect to me.
My love for him runs deeper than just through my veins and into my heart, it flows through my body and my soul. It's almost as if I love him with a love that is not a love, if that makes any sense. To me it does because everything makes sense when I am with him.
I couldn't imagine a life without him, I was addicted to him.
The love I have towards him roars louder than my demons and I thought that was impossible.
I look up to him, his eyes focused on the screen in front of us; occasionally laughing or smiling at something a character says. God, he was complete and utter perfection. I look over every detail of him. I can't see anything I would label an imperfection, not even the few spots he has.
His gaze flickers from the TV to me and I make no effort to look away. He leans down to place a peck on my forehead, allowing it to linger before pulling away and looking into my eyes. I stare back into his, trying to not get lost in the pools of emotion.
"What ya thinking about smelly?" He asks, laughing lightly.
"About how much I love you." I honestly answer, still staring deep into his eyes.
I would normally say something humorous, that I was thinking of how much of a mong he is; which is a blatant lie. I don't know what had come over me to speak my real emotions, I normally try to put out that I didn't love him as much as I actually do. There was no hiding anything now, it was too strong.
"Who are you and what have you done with Adore?" He jokes.
"I feel like I don't really tell you how I really feel, like I try to hide how strong I actually feel towards you. You're my everything, Bradley, nothing makes sense without you. I love you, so fucking much it hurts and my instant reaction to that is to push you away, to fuck everything up but you don't let that happen. You stay with me and I couldn't be happier that you haven't completely mugged me off. Thank you for not leaving me, thank you for loving me."
He just kisses me, softly but passionately and I feel everything that he could tell me with a million words just from a single kiss. We had a beautiful love and I wouldn't trade it for anything in this world.
We hear the door unlocking, making us reluctantly pull away and Bradley pull the covers further up my bare body and a smile graces my face at that simple action. I was his and he was mine.
Tristan comes into my room, a smirk on his face at the scene of his two best friends naked in front of him and sends a nod to Bradley.
"You really couldn't be any louder if you tried." He laughs. "It's all set up Brad." Tristan says and my eyebrows furrow in confusion as I look at my boyfriend, wondering what Tris was talking about.
Tristan leaves after that and Brad stands up, pulling on his boxers and grey joggers before tossing me my underwear and the shirt he was wearing earlier. It engulfs my small frame but gives me a sense of joy as I can smell his aftershave on it.
He grabs my hand, not uttering a single word and brings me into the living room where a guitar was set up as well as some candles and rose petals; no one was in sight, like they had vanished into thin air.
He guides me to my armchair which was situated in front of the stool with the guitar propped against it. I sit down, my eyebrows staying furrowed as he sits on the stool and wraps the guitar strap around his shoulder and adjusts it so the instrument sits perfectly in his lap.
"I've been writing a song ever since I met you and I finished it last night. I love you, Adore and I hope this proves it to you."
He begins to sing and our whole relationship flashes in front of my eyes, from when we met, to the hospital trips, to the screaming in pain, to the drugs and to all the good moments we have spent together.
"I need big dreams
In city streets and bright lights
'Cause this seems to make me feel alright
And I want this one
And I can take
And I can feel myself
On the brink about to break
And I'll be lost
And alone
And I'm scared to fall on my own
I need hope or control
But something's pulling me in
It needs to hurt, so we could work
And I need fire, so I can burn
And I need love, so I can learn
I'm just a boy with the world at my feet you'll find a girl
Telling me to not get hurt
Telling me but I won't learn
'Cause I want you and nothing can stop this
So let's sit and watch this burn
And as it ends up in ashes
We sit and laugh, yeah
We sit and watch this burn
I need your heart and both hands and my plans
Are to make you feel alright
But you want it all in good time
And I get that you've been hurt before
And I'll be lost and alone
And I'm scared to fall on my own
It needs to hurt, so we could work
And I need fire, so I can burn
And I need love, so I can learn
I'm just a boy with the world at my feet you'll find a girl
Telling me to not get hurt
Telling me but I won't learn
'Cause I want you and nothing can stop this
So let's sit and watch this burn
And as it ends up in ashes
We sit and laugh, yeah
We sit and watch this burn
When the world gets quiet
I'll scream your name
And when your lungs get tired
The air will breath the same
Don't forget me, let me ease your pain
Your heavy heart is breaking
Don't let it slip away
It needs to hurt, so we could work
And I need fire, so I can burn
And I need love, so I can learn
Burn, 'cause I want you and nothing can stop this
So let's sit and watch this burn
And as it ends up in ashes
We sit and laugh, yeah
We sit and watch this burn
Burn, 'cause I want you and nothing can stop this
So let's sit and watch this burn
And as it ends up in ashes
We sit and laugh, yeah
We sit and watch this burn."
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burn || bws
Fanfiction"It needs to hurt so we can work and I need fire so I can burn and I need love so I can learn" in which a boy with a rough background falls for a girl with bipolar
