it is either too many emotions being experienced or none at all. there is no happy medium. no. you either feel happy one moment and suicidal the next or you feel absolutely nothing. it happens so fast sometimes you don't even notice.
sometimes you don't want to notice.
sometimes it becomes too much for you to keep up with so you just end up not caring.
in the end though, you can't help whatever you're feeling. you just can't. you want to but you've been hurt. you've been broken and quite frankly you feel like there's nothing you can do about it.
all you want to do is lay down.
not to cry. not to smile.
just to stop and lay down.
sometimes you need to put your life on pause because the constant storm fogging up your brain is getting too intense, too strong. you can't stop it this time.
so you just have to stop and lay down.
let it take ahold of your mind, body, and soul.
it has taken over so just let it be.
at least put your life on hold so nothing else will be compromised. ruined. destroyed.
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i know this is dramatic and short but i stopped caring a long time ago so here you go.
