I am not prepared to sit here and listen to sad music. I'm not prepared to cry myself to sleep. I'm not prepared to wait for someone to want to talk to me. I'm not prepared to talk about my problems. I'm not prepared to be depressed and sad. I'm not prepared for anxiety attacks. I'm not prepared to be extremely alone. I'm not prepared to be an outcast. I'm not prepared to depress people with my feelings and problems. I'm not prepared to cause problems because of my own issues. I'm not prepared for other people to crush my self esteem. but it all happens. I may not be ready for all of it, but it's all going to happen, I'm just not prepared because I don't want any of it to happen. I cannot deny myself the fact of all of these things coming true. so I won't. I'm just not prepared.
